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Hi, hi! I'm Cutepups and not a complete fail! :'D

I feel so pretty good right now. I'm like. Yes. This feels good.

(Please give me attention and validation when I'm making a post that isn't full of self-pity.)

So I had my first AP test today. (Those kinds of tests are timed and have essays, by the way). For these past few days and especially in the middle of the night, I was worrying a lot about the test. Like my shiz frick brain decides, "heyeyy let's overanalyze life and existence at 3 am. oh and yeah you shiz frick, you have that test tomorrow :^)". And then my stomach lowkey hurts when I'm anxious about things in life. Like, idk, my existence. Ha.. sorry that was a terrible joke. So yeah. Had a test today.

Ok so I was expecting it to be long and with complicated questions. But in reality, it was short and with easy to understand questions. It was fairly easy, honestly. Even the "short essay" wasn't that bad (at least I hope lol).

I already had to do a few essays for the class already. About that, I think I might've been complaining about how my last essay I did for that class was probably the worst. Well, guys, just like a lot of other classmates, I also got a 100 on my essay.

Ah, that's good. My teacher is very chill and nice, too.

Phew, I'm not a failure as of right now. Guys, I'm okay. I'm okay. Wow, I'm not lonely and sad. I'm not lonely, guys.

I've been communicating way more often with that one irl friend of mine who still communicates with me. Like way more. I have a friend, guys. That's pretty awesome.

Oh and since I'm a forgetful piece of trash, I forgot when this other club I signed up for has its first meeting. Thankfully, I got an email for it today. It's tomorrow. And now that one friend has persuaded me to join a third club.

Wow, I'm being social irl. Wow, what a shocker! I think being social is good for my mental health. At least sort of? I haven't been feeling as terrible and at "rock bottom" ever since school started. Yeah, school makes me stressed and all. But not that much so far. Just not as sad and all those crappy symptoms of.. you know.. that thing. Or maybe because I've been taking my vitamins and Kombucha on a regular schedule now. Heh.. well, yeah.

Oh and I don't have school next week on Monday and Tuesday. So yay, another bonus.

I also started working on more drawings after school today. So maybe I'll post another art post soon.

Bye, bye! <3