changed my mind

Um. Hi.

I lied. I didn't make another post on Thursday. Or any on Friday for that matter.

Yeah sorry oops.

I let most of my sad feelings and shiz out in different ways. So I won't ramble for too long.

Yeah ok.

So, I'm an anxious wreck. I overthink and assume the worst a lot. I'm just bad. Haha.

This school week felt so long. Making me even more stressed and feeling inadequate. Glad it's the weekend now.

I panic and get upset/upset myself easily. Life is great.

Projects. Again. Life is soooo great. Projects, huh? ... hell.

The other day I did the smart decision to read the very sad book I'm reading in language arts during school. So I was reading the book on my iPad, and it was towards the end of the book. Well, I was about to stop reading, but then something happened. And I suddenly was shaking and felt like I was crying. So then of course I had to continue reading. And this is at lunch. Yeah, reading in public with several people possibly staring at you isn't the best idea.

That thing? Yeah that. Things happened in the book of course, and then one of them. Um. Basically. It was a suicide attempt.

Yeah. This book. Oh man. The subject matters. Whew.

Anyway. I'm always at some level of being uncomfortable. I'm always nervous about something. It's not fun.

Guilt. Escape. Fear. Trapped.

Words. Those are words. Yeah ok. Heck.

I'm tired.