I still have to write an essay for tomorrow.
*sighs*
I got rid of the playlist. It was making me uncomfortable. Because I just get uncomfortable. Ok. Too much death in the song lyrics. Don't be too concerned about me.
Like. Come on. Guys. I'm kid-friendly. Look. I'm posting about a kid's game. It's called Animal Jam.
No need for those songs. No need to lowkey bring up my declining mental and physical state. And how I kinda-but-at-the-same-time-not-really-exactly wanna die.
Haha boi. I'm a mess. Yeah man, that would be me.
Oh and I also had nightmares last night/this morning. Actual ones. Help. It's like I get nightmares only during the weekend. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I only get over 6 hours of sleep during the weekend. Haha. Haa.
I saw that Fantastic Beasts movie today. Good. Nice. Yes.
In other news, school is making me cry. Projects. Why.
I learned my dad used to be a screenwriter. Wow lmao learn something every day. Those stories he wrote were.. er.. interesting? Um lol. ??????
I'm so scared I actually won't have fun during winter break and will be miserable again. No wifi. Can't escape. Have to answer them. College, SAT, future. Talk, talk, talk. Only that. I feel trapped already.
What makes life worth living for you? Like. What makes you happy? What makes life exciting?
Shut up, Cutepups. Shut up, we get it you're sad again. Give it a rest.
The dreams were so bad...
My skin is annoying me. Again. My eyes hurt. Again.
That's fine. It's okay.
Why do all dreams start good and happy but end up leaving dream-me embarrassed and very sad?
Why...
They really hurt this time. Reminded me of something that happened earlier this year that I wanted to forget.
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Sorry. AJ. That's right.
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I need a break. In general. From lots of things in life.
Bye.
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