dang back at it again

I swear I do this every year...

It's now December! What?! Where did the time go? November is over. It's December!

Shocking news, isn't it?

One more month left of this awful year.

Haha, remember when we all thought 2015 was the worst year? Oh man, wasn't that funny.

It's almost 2017. I'll turn 17 that year. Wow, I'm getting old.

It's midnight. I'm still up. Posting this stupid post. But it's okay. I can't sleep anyway.

I mean. I could try. But nah.

I keep on waking up in the middle of the night. And I toss and turn a lot.

Unhealthy sleeping activated.

For example, I woke up at 3 am yesterday. I got out of bed. To check the time. 3 am. Wow.

The same thing happened at 5 am.

I went back to sleep afterwards though.

Wow, my health is bad. Uh.. lmao.

I also realized that in regards to classwork, I finish mine much slower than the rest of my classmates. It took me so much longer to finish my answers to the writing prompts than others. Mine weren't even long. I'm just slow and bad at concentrating on important things.

I'm so bad lmao.

This week, I have a test and/or a quiz every day. At least one. Every day. Lots of studying. Yeah man, school sucks.

I'm tired but can't sleep.

Because of despair and stress.

Mm fun.

In the afternoons, I try so desperately to make myself happier that I just laugh too long at dumb things on the internet.

What a life I live.

Anyway. I'm such a flawed human being. Much failure from me.

Mm everyone's better than me.

Mm what even is this.

Hahahahahahaaaaa.

Freaking test tomorrow.

This guilt and despair will probably never fully leave.

So just keep on smiling and laughing.

:)

Until things don't go your way again.

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