Hello. Welcome back to another post on the official what-the-hell-is-this blog. I love you all, and I'm glad you're here on this wild adventure of a post. <3
So. Staying positive and happy. That's pretty hard to do. I don't know how others do it.
It's hard to be truly happy when school and life in general just hits me across the face with a giant NO. It's almost winter break. But before that, of course I have to do projects, essays, and tests. Yay, hard work and stress. Woo. Projects.. heh.. *dies*.
And then there's also my parents only wanting to talk about college or the SAT with me. Which isn't fun at all. I hate being forced to think about the future. Makes me uncomfortable. My mom is all about going to this college thing at my school tomorrow. My dad is all about the SAT and registering for it. That's the only conversation we really have nowadays. Which sucks. Not like there's anything other than that to talk about. Heh.
And then the students in my grade at school only talking about classes, grades, colleges, or the SAT.
I need an escape from all this future talk, god damn.
However. Watching the newest Yuri on Ice episode temporarily made my day not as crappy. That rush of excitement was short-lived though. Thanks dad.
What's your opinion on Wednesdays? I think that day sucks. The longest school day in the whole week. At least it feels that way. Lot of work that day. Halfway through the week. Yeah, I don't like Wednesdays. YOI makes Wednesdays a little more enjoyable and bearable.
Sorry. It's just that. Today's episode made my day. And I am blessed.
(Shut up, Cutepups.)
Haha, remember when I used to always say "cruddy" in my posts? Much crud. Cruddy.
(Shut up, Cutepups.)
My emotions fluctuated from feeling happy to annoyed to angry to very happy to resentment. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I'm okay? I guess. I don't know.
I was thinking of going on AJ today. I didn't. What a disgrace I am.
My skin is annoying me. Ugh.
I might finally be seeing Fantastic Beasts this weekend. I'm excited for that.
Anyway, I know I said last post that I would be positive and full of light this month. But guys, come on. If you know me, you know that won't actually happen. Lying to myself even more doesn't seem like a good idea. I'm always paranoid that I am lying to myself about my feelings and other things kinda like that. Heh. So I'll be honest. Just not be as negative about it.
Honestly, school is making me not as happy as I would rather be. School sucks. Work is getting harder. Lots of things to do before break. Stress isn't fun. Doesn't feel good.
Tomorrow is Thursday. The week is almost over yet again. Yes.
On blogging matters, I'm thinking of making a new blog in 2017. Possibly. I just want to try and make a more blog-type blog for myself. Something that is actually good and not this trash.
Then maybe I could take my grandma's advise seriously. She told me I should discuss that I'm a blogger in college applications. Which made me think of this blog. Yeah.. that conversation didn't end well. But if I made a blog that's actually a blog and not some personal journal, maybe I could put down that I'm a blogger. This blog is just a sad excuse of one. Oops.
I always feel like I'm being annoying in my posts. I hate this. I constantly annoy myself. Ugh why tho.
Shoot. I forgot what else I was going to include in this post.
Ugh why tho.
Oh shoot that's right.
*looks at the viewers like in that one good selfie I have*
Hello there, my sweatyhearts. :^)
Do you randomly feel sharp aches and pains in parts of your body such as the head, stomach, limbs, neck, shoulders, back, chest?
Do you have that annoying voice in the back of your head that's a total edgelord that constantly talks about how hopeless you are in the future, how you shouldn't even try since you have no future, and death?
Do you #wanna_die and hate when the little freshman kid on the bus yelled, "I want to slit my throat!" to their friends again?
Do you constantly adjust your glasses?
Do you ever just randomly think of a terrible childhood memory?
Do you ever start shaking for no reason?
Do you hate being a female human because you have to do things like contribute to society and because of annoying body parts?
Do you feel like you're nothing like most girls in your school but you're not a tomboy either?
Do you feel like you'd be happier if you were a cat or a dog?
Do you feel equally sad and happy at the same time?
If so, then there's a chance that you're just like me.
Congratulations, my sweatyhearts. :^)
I kinda want to create one of those "How well do you know me" online quizzes. For you guys to take.
That sounds cool.
I wonder if anyone would take it though.
I don't know. These rushing thoughts, man.
I'm a tired and bitter old thing.
Spread the love this holiday season.
*screams*
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