it's late but idc

Gonna regret it in the morning though.

Yesterday was 2/2. Two-two. Tutu.

..... hah.

But now it's the 3rd.

I took a 3 or 4 hour nap after school. That's why I'm still awake.

I mean I'm awake right now as I'm typing this. When I post this, I'll probably go back to sleep. Since I'm still tired and all.

Ooh, today's Friday. Yes.

I got a 102% on my physics test. Ah heck yeah. Nice.

My stomach isn't hurting as much anymore. I bet it's because I'm not as anxious as I was earlier this week.

I was playing this dodgeball game in gym, but it had a different name. I wasn't even paying attention. The next thing I know is being the only one on my team that didn't get knocked out and put in jail.

I was so lost and confused. Like, what? How does that even happen? How did they all get knocked out? They were just next to me a minute ago, right? ????? Wild.

I didn't just learn about a war and bombing in history class. But in spanish class too.

And that's how my B day on Thursday went in summary.

Away from this school talk, let's talk about writing.

Ok lol.

I was looking at my older poems I have on my deviantart. And like. What the heck.

Why was I obsessed with blood so much? Blood words, cuts? Talk about being an edgy cringelord, Cutepups.

Then there are the ones where I was basically saying, "Depression lol I want to die lol." Oh geez man. I was a sad fool back then. Bad times lol. I forgot why though lol.

I have the feeling those thoughts will come back later this year because of all the stressful things I have to do this year. (*cough* SAT, AP exams, driver's test, job applications, college applications... *cough* I'm terrified lol :') )

I'm also reading other poems of mine. They're so good and the words are powerful and they have meaning.. I love these?? I'm starting to really appreciate some of the poems I wrote. One being Glass World. That's a good one.

And then there are the poems where I'm thinking, "Omg Cutepups you are so full of love haha wtf squish lol haha lol crying."

Squish isn't a typo lol :^)

In conclusion, my poems are so emotional wow.

About Twinkle's Story now that I'm writing it again, I've been thinking.

I have an idea for a scene that happens. But here's the thing. A lot of things have to happen before that scene can happen. If I just go to that one scene I have in mind, it'll make no sense. Anyway, I have no ideas for how to lead up to that scene.

A lot has to happen. Close bonds. Friendship.

Yeah I don't know.

I also want to make chapters that are more about Dawn. Stuff like her past. Oh so mysterious. Ooh mystery.

I'm trying to make Dawn and Twinkle become friends. Well, at least mutual acquaintances. Ah yes Cutepups, make the two main female characters who both got severely hurt by the main male character become close friends.

Dawn, she's a complicated character. Started her off as being a lustful character. I'm trying to develop her character to be more than that. But like. She's still full of lust though. Love too, haha.

Are all the kisses actually romantic? Maybe, maybe not. Dawn is pretty strange, alright.

I appreciate her and Calliah. When I first introduced their characters, I hated both of them a lot. Now times have changed. And I love both of them now. They've done some pretty crappy stuff, don't get me wrong. But they're great. Ok. They're great. You probably don't get it yet. But if I write good enough, you will.

For a few days now when I was bored, I was thinking of a story idea. But it's kinda gross, to be honest.

It'll be quite the plot twist though lol. 

Haha lol wtf. What if x character and y character are (step)siblings?

x and y? What is this? Math?

Yeah, this is math. Solve for x and y. One of the variables is probably wrong on the first guess. Actually, maybe two.

Haha lol wtf. You are loved. Good night.