another late night post

Hello. It's currently 1:20 in the morning that I'm typing this. Yeah, it's getting pretty late.

It's getting hard to sleep. No, I'm not an insomniac. It's just. Sleeping. It's hard sometimes.

Sleeping facing one way feels bad after a while. So flip, so switch. Keep doing that.

Sleeping under the covers feels bad after a while. Now I find myself waking up with no blanket on me.

Sleeping is hard when my dreams become realistic but not quite realistic. Dreams remind me of bad things that I should be worrying about when I'm awake but don't. Other times, they end in death. Of who? Well, it's not that hard to guess. And it's not my characters.

To some extent, I'm always tired. I've been stained with the burden of permanent tiredness and not enough energy to function like those other people in society. And by that, I don't only mean extroverts.

I'm tired and want to sleep my life away. But I just can't. Not because I "want to live my life" or some crap, but because being asleep can hurt.

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In twelve hours from now, I'll be back there again taking the test for the third time.

The experiences of being there twice didn't make my fears of the test go away. Not in the slightest.

I should be less scared. But I'm not.

I'm still scared.

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Summer is going by quickly.

I don't like this. No, not at all.

I'm haunted by the fact that I have to know very big and important stuff during the fall season.

My one irl friend it seems keeps on reminding me of things. Which, in turn, leave me feeling more haunted.

Am I living? Am I real? Is this really happening to me?

I don't know any of the answers to this.

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A few hours ago, I had several different post ideas.

I came up with this one.

Way to go, Cutepups.

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I want to bring my "Cutepups Support" segment back.

I might do that.

I might have gotten inspired to do so because of this blog I view.

Well, it'll be slightly different.

I know I'm a copier, but I don't make exact copies.

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I took photos of my cat looking like iconic moods.

The flash made his eyes look pink. His pupils are always dilated.

Zo is my favorite evil boy irl. He is an evil cat. Thelma is a different type of evil. My cats are evil.

No, so is Sunshine. She's evil in her own special way. My pets are.. quite something.

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Zo's four iconic moods shown in the photos:

1. Awareness
2. Being smug
3. Depressed
4. Blep!

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~ Cutepups ☆