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List of things. Random thoughts.

Yeah. 

Sorry in advance.

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Really, pfft? 

Nobody has an opinion on Jinx and Jax? 

Wow gosh ok then.

Fine, I'll let it go.

Giving up.

:-)

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I had a dream where I got a bar of soap. 

The top of it was very sparkly and looked like a green and purple crystal.

That is so interesting, right guys?

Viewers: no view, no comments

Me: alright then XD

Well.. uh.. I think this guy character gave me the soap.

That's weird, Cutepups.

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I wanted to draw fanart for a while now.

But drawing them is hard.

What no.. I totally don't mean anime characters.

.. I mean yes.

And cartoon characters.

Same thing.

-X- -X-

I really hate when I see and/or hear other people talk about how bad their art is.

No, stop that.

You're young. Your art can change. You have potential. Your art is beautiful.

Same goes for people who call themselves ugly.

Stop it! You're not ugly!

Meanwhile I'm the one who lost the opportunity for potential and is actually gross and ugly: :^)

I freaking hate myself. XD :) 

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Behind the lies and fake niceness, I bet everyone who actually knows me hates me.

I'm annoying. I know.

Hate me. XD 

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Sometimes, like now and since yesterday, I feel so itchy everywhere. 

I hate this.

This body prison.

Ugh why life.

Ouch.

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So in 2015 I talked about this future character named Dylan.

Now in 2017, I'm not sure if I'll actually name him Dylan in the story.

.. He was introduced already. ;)

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I feel so damn disconnected from my posts from previous years.

Did I actually write like that?

What the actual heck.

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I'm getting a haircut soon.

I'm in that mood to cut my hair shorter again.

My hair annoys me so much.

It's itchy too. 

Ugh why.

Life is pain, kids. :-)

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Plot twist: Twinkle is a boy.

Boi XD

.. why can't we be boys? 

XD this body df 

This female hecking body df

(The Blogger app just glitched, and I just panicked because this draft wasn't showing up. Hahahaha!!!!)

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I hate typing these posts on the iPad.

Right now, I have no other choice.

I still can't get to the internet on my dumb computer.

That great feel when life things screw you over. 

So great! XD :)

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This is such 2016 Cutepups crap talk but screw it.

Every second that goes by is closer to the time that I'm gonna lose it.

I'm so screwed. Ha, ha, ha.

Without my story and other fiction things, I'll be a lot worse. A whole lot negative. 

Fiction is a distraction, and without it, I'm nothing and have nothing.

Friends.. yeah sure. Those have gotten a bit better this year. 

But I can't help but feel like they (you, reading this? idk) are annoyed with me and can't stand me that much longer. 

The only good things I can talk about are fictional things, and stuff about my pets. 

Because the truth is, real world stuff in this reality are very crappy.

Life unironically sucks, ok.

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Sorry I'm not good enough for anyone. Including myself.

I'm not nice, funny, and extroverted enough.

I know that, damn it.

-X- -X-

I can't go a day without worrying.

It's not important though. I bet life is worse for anyone else reading this crap.

Can't get a break from this life stuff pressure.

Oh no.

Applying for jobs and colleges is terrifying af for me.

Sorry I have anxiety, family. :/

Every. Freaking. Day.

The. Same. Thing.

I really have to start getting serious about this stressful thing in the early fall.

Senior year. Yeah haha so fun. 

No, screw you. :-)

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I can't do this. 

Giving up. XD 

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I don't care what you say.

I attempted plenty of times. I tried, damn it!

But I don't give a flying f anymore!

I'm sick of trying. I'm sick of failing.

I'm sick of knowing that people hate me, but deny it when I say they do.

I'm sick of having to "face things that give me anxiety."

I'm sick of being forced to know when I don't know crap.

I'm sick of my entire life being an embarrassment compilation.

I'm sick of myself- this body and personality.

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The words they say.

They only enforce the fact that I have no future and won't live as an adult.

Limited time left then. 

XD welp ok

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I get it! I freaking get, damn it!

I don't really care, ok!

They're supportive of me. They want me to be successful. They're just worried about me.

And for what? 

I can't do anything right, and I don't know anything good enough.

I'm so freaking scared. I'm sorry but.

"Help" isn't that helpful.

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.. I remembered why I don't get too personal anymore.

.. fck it tho

I hate myself and want to destroy myself even more now.

I'm not a cool blue dude. 

Sorry.

Nobody is happy. 

Neither am I.

-X- -X-

But I went to the fair yesterday.

I saw so many good dogs there.

That's a good thing, I guess. 

:) - unironically 

-X- -X-

It honestly feels like I'm the only one I know who has to fail a few times before I succeed.

It's like I'm the only one. Everyone succeeds far easier than me.

I hate how I'm like this. Eww gross. :/

I want to give up everything before properly trying enough thousand times.

End me, you fools.

I'm done. 

-X- -X- 

Just kidding.

I'm still here.

I'm a disappointment.

-X- -X-

Text: "aromantic people with romantic attraction"

Me, reading this: ???????? What the df wtf ?????????????????

Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

-X- -X- 

That G word is annoying me again.

I hate this crap.

Gender.

What the heck even is that anymore?

What even am I?

Being female really annoys me and makes me uncomfortable sometimes.

But.. gosh, I'm annoyed and confused and frustrated and I hate this crap.

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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