Year of the Dragon

Trying to write poetry again. I'm a little rusty. ^-^'

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It happened the other day

I was in the car with my family

In pain and in a daze

Cars sped past ours in a blur 

Next thing I knew was

Seeing the flash of red ahead 

Red light again

Being forced to stop

Can't move forward no more

That's when I paid attention to the radio

The spokesperson was talking about

Those Chinese animal year signs

I don't know why but he wanted to

Talk about one in particular

The one he chose was the

Year of the dragon

By then I was out of my daze

That year was also my birth year

The person on the radio talked about

People born in the

Year of the dragon

That meant that I was

Another person that could connect to his

Studies of people born in the

Year of the dragon

I want to believe I'm a dragon

Just like they are

If only I could believe 

Those words I was hearing

But no matter how hard I tried

I just couldn't 

What a no good for use dragon am I 

If I can't believe in dragons

If I can't believe in myself

Like I'm supposed to be 

Then the guy from the radio

Said something that made me think

Maybe I could end up believing in myself enough

To believe that I'm also a dragon

He said that fellow people born in the

Year of the dragon

End up being very successful

Compared to people of different years

Without even knowing how

Successful and valuable 

They knew they were 

If only I could believe in myself

That I am also a dragon with the

Capability to fly 

But no matter how hard I try

I find myself not being able to

I know that those other people

Became very successful

Without thinking they were successful 

In the beginning at all

I'm from the dragon years just like them

But I guess I'll just be that dragon

Laying on the ground on top of a mountain

Unable to spread my wings and fly 

I wish I could think that I 

Could one day become successful

But it's hard when life has me tied up

It's hard to fly when I'm stuck on the ground

Sorry to say that I'm continuing to sink

To an even lower low point than before

I'm being buried alive

I'm sinking in this hole

Right now life has me tied up

So no I can't just fly and be free

I wish I could see myself as successful

But right now that's only a lie

I'm sick of all the lies

I can't lie and say I'll be successful

Because when I look at me in the future 

I don't see me there at all

And especially not 

A successful dragon who is flying amongst the stars 

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..... yeah eww this is bad

I wanted to write about this. 

It's 2 am now.

I'm tired, sad, and scared.

Bye.