So first off, my computer is acting dumb again. It has an error message that won't go away. This happened before, and it took so long for it to go away. I feel bummed.
Hopefully, I can fix that mess. Heh..
And so I'm typing this on my iPad. (As one example, I had to retype that one sentence 3 times.)
But not all is bad...
I saved some photos I took on my phone onto my iPad. Thanks to me for uploading them to dA.
When I said I was going away for a few days on the Chapter 75 post, one place I visited was this plant conservatory. The only photos I took were from the butterfly garden there.
The first photo I'm going to show is my favorite one.
Haha yep. :)
Beautiful butterflies. <3
I know the first two are monarchs, but I'm not sure about the last one.
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I'm so annoyed with myself. Pfft.
I drew this cute TV head person on my computer that I wanted to feature in a blog post. But I can't really get it now. Ugh.
About art, I feel like the only good post ideas I have now are me posting my drawings. Well, besides my chapter posts of course.
I have lots of Twinkle's Story related drawings I could work on and finish.
But now I really feel like I should try and draw some more different fan-arts. Hmm, I might give that a shot.
Oh and maybe I'll draw my non-story OCs more. Yeah haha, I have other characters.
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I have this fantasy creatures AU for my Twinkle's Story main characters. I know what I'll do with two characters (Duke and Dawn) but that's it.
Eh, I'll explain. By that, I mean they're dressed up as fantasy creatures.
Duke: phoenix
Dawn: seelie (fae?)
What are those nature creatures called? Hmm, I guess Twinkle can be a blue phoenix.
I guess I could draw Fauna as a non-human style angel.
Yeah, that's really it. I don't know what to do for anyone else.
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Pfft. Nobody answered my question about Jinx and Jax. I'm curious, guys.
I wonder how you'll feel about them when you learn more about them.
I love them. They're pretty interesting guys.
(Omg I almost deleted this post..)
Oh and to be honest, I want to know how you feel about Fierdan. Only from chapter posts.
Has your opinion on him ever changed throughout the story? How about the brother, whose name was recently revealed to be Ryen?
I wonder how you'll feel about them after you read Chapter 76. Haha. >:')
Oh, oh! The same goes for Dawn. The green girl deserved a much better past. ;;
Man, I sure do love imagining myself drawing the three of them as little kids.
My tragic lives children. ;v;
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I really have to read this book.
Why am I still typing up this post?
I don't know.
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This year, this summer. Uh.. well..
I feel like I'm giving off the impression that I'm more chill and happier than last year.
Which is true.. I guess?
But I know I'm also lying.
Is this because I've been posting less? Perhaps. I only post when I feel motivated to.
Compared to last summer, I haven't fallen apart. My thoughts aren't as depressing and bad and all that negativity. Death isn't on my mind as much despite me not knowing how I'll live in the future.
So yeah. My mental health isn't as bad as back then.
But here's the thing.
My thought process is still pretty bad. I have irrational thinking and I overthink.
Anxiety is never fun.
I dread and panic every day this summer. I'm so scared for school starting and the fall season.
Like.. haha.. why am I so scared? This is stupid, huh.
Jobs and college related stuff. I have fears.
I don't want to go into it, but I have low self-esteem and don't really like myself at all. Oops.
Ugh, I really don't know how to do and deal with anything.
Fiction is such a great coping mechanism thing. Seriously.
Bye for now.
~ Cutepups
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