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... I give up on good quality titles for these kinds of posts.

 Yes, hi. Let's talk. :) 

At first, I thought I would make another (less violent? pfft) post on the 14th. Something more happy-lovey-sappy. Yeah.. that wasn't the case. 

I was busy (*cough* writing essays *cough*) and I was too tired to post at night. 

Then there's Friday. I was very busy and too tired to create a post when I finally got a chance to. 

I have Monday and Tuesday off (no classes). I went home yesterday (Friday), and that took a few hours. So I get to spend this weekend at home. Right now, Thelma (that little punk tuxedo cat whom I love <3) is sleeping on my bed. She misses being in my room when I'm away. I let her stay in my room when I'm home. So yeah, I went home because I have a long weekend. :') 

Anyway, I have to say something. I just gotta tell you guys. 

I don't fully plan the entirety of my posts (except story/skit and poem posts.. for the most part). I'm not a person who really plans things out. I just get an idea or ideas stuck in my head, and base my posts off that. Whatever is on my mind is what I'll post about. 

I think this is called doing a free-write? Free-writing? idk. That's how I roll. 

I'm taking a creative writing class this semester. And wow, my one beginning paper was such a free-write. I quickly type my papers, but geez.. that one I wrote.. it has style. Good stuff. (... I forgot what I was saying here lol oops). 

The word isn't actually "free-write" I forgot the actual word. Dang it. :/ 

I'm just typing garbage. That's what this blog is. :) 

Do I pause and think before I start typing? Haha yeah.. No. 

I'm not an organized blogger. I think of my blogging style being more like online journaling. I feel more satisfaction writing about my life in blog posts than in a journal. I crave attention and validation.. from people who don't know/haven't met me irl. 

Ah.. :') 

When I started writing the previous post, I wasn't planning on swearing in it. Then one thing led to another.. and yeah, my mind was like *full of explicits* because I was thinking more about Duke. 

(Ahaha! That boy! What a kid! He's terrifying! ^-^')

Oh shoot, I got an idea! (lmao) 

Other People: *can't stop thinking about their crush or some other type of romantic garbage* 

Me: *can't stop thinking about my characters- especially Duke* 

Other People: *casually walk around listening to new pop songs* 

Me: *casually walking to/from classes, in the city, uh.. in my room listening to my character playlists- many times with stuff like "kill everyone!" "break your face!" "die!" screaming in my ears* 

Other People: *want their characters to be happy or at least get happy endings*

Me: :^) well...... 

aaaahhh asdfghjkl ,, me. 

Anyway, I spent the day thinking. You know what? The voice actors for my characters have to be.. talented. I just can't do that. I can't voice my characters. I'm not talented enough. 

Especially for Duke's voice and Fierdan's voice. Like ok.. damn son. Heck me up. 

Because they sure do scream/shout/shriek/yell a lot. And in such a way that you (well, me. I can) hear their intense pain just by their voices alone. 

Ugh, it's frustrating that I don't have any particular people I can use as reference for their voices to show you guys. I have such a vivid idea for what Duke and Fierdan's voices sound like. I can hear them in my mind, but I can't properly tell others what their voices are like. It frustrates me greatly. :( 

To be a Duke or Fierdan voice actor, you will have to be a qualified screamer and be willing to have your throat (and vocal cords? idk how this stuff works) ache. :-) 

I'm just thinking about how much they scream (and the similar ^^) and they do that a lot. Gosh, their voices. It even makes my own throat hurt. 

Oh and the same applies for Ryen and Twinkle. Maybe Dawn as well. Their voices also get.. painfully loud. Not as often as Duke's and Fierdan's, but they still scream intensely on a few occasions. 

Haha, remember that one time I wrote a chapter or two with Duke screaming for a long time without stopping and his throat hurt afterwards? Ahh.. 

I think of Fierdan's (calm-ish) talking voice being much softer (quieter) than Duke's and idk how else to describe it but as smooth. A smooth voice? Uh yeah sure, whatever the hell that means. And his voice also sounds equally comforting and chilling. Gosh, I love Fierdan's voice. Damn. 

And then there's Fierdan when he's being very emotional. I'm not just thinking about story 1. Just.. his voice in general. It's just so beautiful? ok. 

When he's very emotional (anger, panic, despair, rage, sadness.. stuff like that), he gets a lot louder. It's like "nope! this guy might have a sweet-eerie soft casual talking voice, but he sure can speak very loudly if he wants to" ... haha. 

Yeah uhhh....... his voice? hot. mm omg. 

Fierdan's voice during his angry outbursts. Fierdan's voice when he breaks down panicking. Damn! I love it! So much! 

<3 <3 <3 

I could ramble some more, but I'm gonna end the post here. 

Bye for now. ;D

~ Cutepups