hmm...ok

Yeah so uh, I didn't make another post a few hours after the last one. Oops. 

I put more songs on the playlist. It's past 150 now. 

(Yeah, I was looking for more songs to add at 2 am again. Pfft.)  

Several times when I was creating the playlist, I've been looking back at that drawing of Finny and Duke I showed a few days ago. 

You know.. this one.

I keep on looking back at how I drew Duke. And I.. I still like it? Well, how his face (head? lol) and his body (without his limbs lol who needs those) looks.

I'm a fan of Duke in a black tank top and those wristbands. And my poor linework on his right arm makes it look like he has some muscles. So I like how that came out too. :) 

Meanwhile I totally butchered Finny's left arm. I don't know what happened. Sorry about that, Finn. 

Anyway, I love the color dynamic thing between Duke and Finny. Duke is the one who wears black and Finny wears white. Duke has dark colored hair and Finny has light colored hair. It's like they're opposites, wow, would you look at that. 

Geez, Duke looks so young in this. My drawing of him,, ahh,, he's my child,, he is just a kid,,. 

I don't know if anyone noticed, but I feel like I draw Duke with black fingernails a lot. I don't know why. 

Huh, that's weird. Ok.. 

I imagine Duke and Finny listening to my DUKE + Fierdan playlist and singing some of the songs from it. 

Uh.. wow, it's mostly rock and heavy metal songs but also with some not rock or heavy metal songs mixed in. The playlist, yeah haha, it's become a mess. I only create messes. :-) 

Oh.. oh! 

When Duke was singing in the shower in my early-ish December 2018 skit, he's singing a heavy metal song. I imagine him singing way better lyrics than what I wrote in that skit. I actually imagine him as a damn good singer. I just struggle coming up with original song lyrics. It's a little different than simple poetry; there's an added layer of complexity to creating lines that are meant to be sung. 

I think I was listening to "Pittsburgh" on repeat when I was writing lines that Duke sings and screams in the shower. (check my playlist for the "Pittsburgh" song I'm referring to) 

I'm talking about this lol:

[That night. Duke is in the shower. He is singing in the shower.]

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Duke: *sings angrily but also softly* Whoa, oh, oh. Whoa, oh, oh. *starts screaming* Harassed! Violated! Break me down until I'm nothing! *sings softly again* I think there's something wrong with me. There's fire in my skin, and it burns. I told you it hurts, but you only strengthen the flames. *screams again* Harass me! Violate every part of me! This body isn't mine! *sings* I hate you. I hate you. *pauses* Why do I love you? 

Yeah. I don't know how to write song lyrics. Though it does look like Duke is screaming gibberish, which is funny..? idk. 

On an introspective note, the quality of my art (drawings) and writings have improved significantly in the past few months. For real.

It just.. Wow. :0 :)

Ok yeah bye. 

~ Cutepups