oh huh i'm posting now

Oh huh, I'm posting now. I am posting. Wow. 

I didn't plan this. But ok. 

For nearly the past hour, I've been putting more songs in my Duke and Fierdan music playlist. 

And I found songs.. and and and...

I found at least one that reminds me a lot of the lovely : ) father/brother relationship that Fierdan has with Z and Ryen. 

I have at least two songs that I can put in a playlist themed around Ryen. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. 

The last 20-ish songs of my Duke and Fierdan playlist are making me strongly feel.. emotions. Oh geez, I'm getting thoughts. 

Hhhhhrrrffffrfrfghhhhfffffghhgghgghhhghh

Also... 

Dawn really looks nothing like any of them. She doesn't look like Stella (oh sorry, I mean Twinkle). She doesn't look like Ryen, and she doesn't look like Fierdan. 

Like.. pretty damn different. 

Their childhood (I mean Ryen, Fierdan, Dawn) legit makes me cry. They're all so cute. Even grumpy Ryen is cute. I love them all. They're my hecking kids. 

Pre-Fierdan Danny and Dawn are... god, I love them so much. They're so sweet. Their little kid faces, their smiles, their voices (when they're happy),,,, hhhh <3 <3. 

Little kid Danny and Fierdan in his late teens. Just.. wow. What a difference. This guy goes through so much. 

From cute and human angel to violent and human devil. I mean.. oppposites. Fierdan really has it all. 

Teenage Fierdan gives me so much pain. I could cry. That's not normal puberty, boy. :'( 

Oh lol. The other day, I was thinking of Fierdan signing his name (in cursive, his signature). And that got me thinking. 

In "Fierdan", his name is really just the "dan" part. So what if he's a fan of only using lowercase letters. And so, he writes and signs his name(s) as dan, danny, and daniel. 

Because like. Hey. It's not like his name is FierDan. That looks weird. I don't like that. Why is there a capital letter in the middle of the word? That's not right. It's Fierdan. The "Fier" is an adjective of the noun, "dan", which is the actual name part of "Fierdan".. uh yeah lol. 

And then I was imagining Fierdan signing his name, and I thought even that looked beautiful. 

(Damn it, Cutepups. You think everything about Fierdan is beautiful, huh?)

Haha. Ha ha. Pretty much.. yeah. 

Especially the part when he finishes writing all the letters and goes back to dot the 'i'. 

Ok hear me out. Just imagine Fierdan dotting the 'i' with a teeny tiny flame he quickly draws. That's cute. I think that's very cute. 

Ok, it's not like he would do that every time he writes his name. It's just a sometimes thing.

Ah... :') 

My eyes want to remain shut. It's time for sleep. 

Good night. 

~ Cutepups