gonna make the playlist lol

Hey, you guys, guess what? It's Friday! 

Wow, this week felt so long. It's only been one week back at college. 

I'm very tired. I had so much anxiety these past few days. I still have some, but not as much anymore. I had some things figured out. 

Readings are hard to understand. I feel like a dumb fool. :( 

The one all about murder wasn't as boring though. Because like. It's all about murder. 

I'm taking a criminology class, thats why. lmao. 

Anyway, this semester's classes are an entirely different Mood. Everything feels so different than last semester. 

I might be exaggerating, but I don't know for sure if I am or not. 

Yeah, uh, I'll just leave it at that. Enough with the personal life crud. 

(Remember when I said that all the time? "crud" omg why lmao) 

I sucked up my indecisiveness and just made a Spotify playlist. I have to put songs on it; it's empty right now. 

I'm making a playlist because I'm tired of making so many posts with several YouTube videos in them. 

So, you know, why not? Why don't I impulsively make my own character theme playlists? That sounds fun. It'll occupy my time. 

(The playlist I made is the one where I'll put all the songs I found that remind me of Duke and/or Fierdan. I have many, many songs for them. Haha yeah. I'm weird and obsessed with my fire boy disasters. Do I need help? To be honest.. yeah, probably.) 

I also plan on making a Twinkle themed one, but I only want to focus on the Duke and Fierdan themed one for now. 

I don't know how to have it as a link so you guys can access the playlist. I'll try and figure that out. Because I crave attention and validation, and I want you blog viewers who have tolerated my cursed blogging to listen to my playlists. 

Haha, I'm going to look back at my song-filled posts and my very old iTunes playlist. 

You think that my posts contain all the songs I want to put in the playlist? Haha no, I have plenty of more songs I never included in a post. 

(Ooh, this is so exciting! I'm suddenly feeling like I should rub my hands together like a villain. ... uh ok.? hehehe.)

It's February! January felt very long. That's time for you! It doesn't make sense. 

I'm going to put songs with explicit lyrics in the playlist. Definitely the Duke and Fierdan one. 

I imagine them swearing a lot, so what do you expect? Something completely clean? Nothing about them is clean. 

I think I'm unable to fully express in words the personalities/identities(/something along those lines) I have stuck in my head for my main characters. 

So that's where music comes in. Music is a big help. I love that stuff. 

Comment whatever the hell you want. Just.. be nice, okay? 

... I still plan on making that eye post, don't worry. 

Oh, I thought of this too. If I ever make a Ryen themed playlist, there's also going to be plenty of hard rock (with screaming lyrics perhaps?) in it. I say "also" because I have plenty of hard rock (with screaming lyrics in some of them) songs for the Duke and Fierdan themed playlist. Is "hard rock" even the right phrase for me to use? I don't know. I'm too lazy to double check. 

Musically, I've been thinking about Ryen. I imagine his childhood and the first half of his teenage years being rock/metal and everything sounds loud and chaotic. But then comes his twenties and the loud songs with painful lyrics mostly stop. And Ryen at his mid-to-late twenties current age is all like alternative rock, indie, and I'm also thinking of instrumental and classical music for some reason. 

Ryen was full of repressed anger/rage/fury during his childhood. He was a deeply unhappy child. He emotionally burst one day (by that I mean something like a severe mental breakdown). Then as he grew older, he calmed down bit by bit, little by little. And here he is today. A changed man. Thinking about him makes me emotional sometimes. He also went through a lot. 

I really should properly draw Ryen some day. 

But I'm going to first work on the playlist for Duke and Fierdan. 

I couldn't hold it back anymore. So I just went ahead and did it. 

Please, I'm a lonely soul. Comment whatever you want. Say anything.

But please be nice. Alright? Cool. 

That's all for now. Good luck, good vibes, good bye. 

~ Cutepups