Duke is an otter (jk)

Hi, I feel sad. I'm feeling sad lately. I can't breathe well. Hello. :-) 

I'm a dumb fool.

It's in the single digits, temperature-wise. In other places, it's well below 0 degrees Fahrenheit. Brr, that's cold! 

Anyway, the heating in my room was turned on before and now it's off, and my body feels so warm and I hate this. 

(watch me be sick lmao) 

I can't really breathe. Ah, haha, that's cool. That's fine. I'll just suffer. :'-} 

And like the title says, Duke is an otter. I've finally found the word that vaguely-but-still-not-exactly describes his physical body. 

He's an otter. 

... ok just kidding, relax. 

I mean ottermode. Animal mode- otter. 

... damn, Duke is a lot of animals. Wait, only I understand that reference. shit.. 

But at the same time, not really. It's confusing. I'll attempt to write an explanation of my train of thought. 

More like trains of thoughts. But that doesn't matter. 

I don't know how or why or what came of me to decide this, but anyway.. 

For some reason, I imagine Duke's body type being between "skinny" and "ottermode"- he's a skinny ottermode, if I dare say. 

... wow, I can't breathe out of my nose. haha! great!! 

I just see him as being a skinny guy these days. I'm just thinking of him a few years back in his younger adolescent days, thinking stuff like, "hey, you know what? Duke was a skinny kid. he's small." and then stuff like, "i want to draw ribs in that awkward body position." .... oh and i'm tired and feel like shit right now, so that's what tf is up. 

I don't think this makes sense, but for some reason, I imagine Duke having some visible muscles while being visibly skinny at the same time. And I mean skinny. Do you think this boy eats three proper/healthy meals a day? Like hell he does (he doesn't). 

And I just imagine Fierdan (in Cincernum) being much, much skinnier than Duke and without the muscles that are somehow visible on Duke for some reason. 

But when Duke is locked up in a basement and tortured for a week, he becomes like actually skinny with no visible muscles, and yeah idk how this boy is even alive still. He's living dead, alright. 

Fierdan (Danny) well in story 2 becomes something that looks the most like an ottermode body. And he looks gorgeous and hot damn my man. 

... all my protagonist characters are gorgeous and hot damn, actually. in their own special ways. (uwu) 

... "J" man is so gorgeous too. Like.. I can't.  I wish I could draw him. 

But I can't. Because college. College sucks. I hate this. Kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me--

You know what? Duke and Fierdan are just sacks of flesh and bone. That's it. That's all there is to their characters. 

I also randomly think about how "unmanly" they look sometimes. Like, dang, their faces, their hair,, dang. 

Young teen Duke and young teen Fierdan give me feelings of pain. They're so freaking cute and small.. and suffering so much pain due to violence. :') 

hhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaa

hhhhhaaaaaaa

ha!! 

college is killing me and people are getting on my nerves. ok bye. 

~ Cutepups