The link post

Before dawn of Cutepups' final day of winter break before going back to college. 

I have plenty of posts I still have to make though. Oh heck, I'm running out of time. 

(I didn't even post a new chapter in this month-long amount of free time I had. *smh*) 

Why did I title this 'The link post?'", you may be wondering. Well, I'll tell you. The main purpose of this post is for me to copy and paste some links. Since yesterday or the day before that, this post idea was labeled as "link post" in my mind. So there's my explanation. 

[Warning- the content on the websites I'll link to may contain sensitive themes for viewers. (? yeah idk)]

Ok so, here's the whole thing. 

Unlike my obnoxious/annoying/"ugh" blogger self in 2014/-2015/-2016 who didn't really pay any actual attention to the mental health and psychological impact of my story's plot (in past scenes and current) and how it affects my characters, I do that a lot now. Ever since some point in 2017, really. But a lot more now than even then. 

So I've been searching up certain.. things. Because hey, I for one can't exactly relate to what my characters went/go through. I don't think anyone can directly, but it can be comparable to other things. 

Ok.. 

I just don't want to mess up and make my story (at it's "final version" I mean; what I have in posts now is a first draft lol) have any true actual "bad representation".. if that makes any sense. Whether that be my characters' sexualities, races, mental illnesses.. well, especially those three since those are the ones that come to mind immediately. 

I just don't want to add to harmful stereotypes/stigma. (Dang, this whole story world is so deep and dark. Why is this my first serious original writing project? I don't know why anymore.)

I'm really trying. I want to be accurate and realistic in how I'll portray those (sensitive) themes in my writing. 

So what's my point? 

Around two weeks when I was on deviantart, I read something that had the phrase- unwanted child syndrome. And me, being curious, searched it up on Google. Because I was thinking of my characters and wondered if they could possibly have it. 

(I'm thinking of Danny/Fierdan and Duke the most. Dawn and Ryen as well but not as severely.) 

So I did some clicking and looking and stumbled upon a blog. I don't even remember why at this point, but one of their posts or whatever really struck me. And for the past two weeks, I've had it stuck in the back of my mind. I still have it as an open tab on my phone. I'll probably close it when I publish this though. 

My searching for "unwanted child syndrome" brought results about PTSD. Because.. it just be like that, ok. 

Anyway, I'm posting this as sources and writing references and just so I can know and be informed, and and and-- yeah. 

This is the one I'm referring to.

I actually didn't finish reading the whole thing. So far, I've been paying the most attention to what is called "Type 1 PTSD". 

I was doing this while also creating this post:

and it's why I brought up abandonment and neglect in the post.

"unwanted" "abandoned" "neglected" ... similar. 

I don't want to forget that site, ok..  

And right before I began this post, I found a page on a website that's about trauma and stress disorders. 

It's about Complex PTSD.

I'm questioning whether Duke, Fierdan, and Dawn might have it. I need to look more into it though. Like, a lot more. 

I'm still vague when referring to Dawn and her past, I know. 

What they go through is repeated. It's not "one time things" for them. It's repeated. 

Well, here's something to read. 

Sure. Ok. 

Bye for now. 

~ Cutepups