... I first took a nap.
Another unnecessary life update: I went with my friend to get cupcakes at the nearby cupcake shop.
Mm, cupcakes! :P
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[Content. Uh. Questionable? ??? // Viewer discretion is advised (for the end).]
Sorry but I found things I didn't like. I wrote that part of the post at 3 am, so my thinking was a little off. My apologies.
Duke also has these light purple-gray marks that wrap around his head (scalp) because of the Fierdan-Soulless dark cryptic supernatural shit. Fierdan does not have those marks either.
I'm not satisfied with how I described J's piercings. I see him having at least two cartilage ear piercings. Possibly more but I haven't decided yet.
Oh and I don't really see him having his bellybutton pierced. Sorry, my bad.
And the pierced nipples was more of a joke.
I mean.. he could? But really.. I just.. nah.
I had a very specific outfit/look (TM? in mind for J when I was writing that part of the post. Well actually, more like a lack of clothing. Well, at least topless. You know.. yeah.
He definitely has a bunch of ear piercings, one of his eyebrows pierced, and his nose pierced.
Oh and I guess I should say which colors I think he looks the best in. Ok so those colors are black, white, gray, purple, lavender, ... that's all I've got so far.
I have a specific outfit (yes, clothes) I imagine J in. That shirt.. dang, so extravagant. What a fashion icon.
(I'm too lazy to include the quotation marks for J this time. Oh well, deal with my lack of consistency.)
I want to draw him in that outfit I have in mind. But drawing it will be such a pain. Ugh.
I also want to draw J shirtless. Like, mm boi. Ok well I do want to draw scenes from the third skit part and he's shirtless in that, so.. ok haha yeah.
I really should draw down those hair concepts, piercing concepts, and tattoo concepts I have for him. I have ideas, guys, look at me go.
... uh what r u doing @ brain?
Ok so. About that skit I made with Duke wearing lingerie and being high. Well I. (....)
To be honest, I'm not even sure if "lingerie" was the best word to use, but I can't think of a better word to use.
Anyway, it's been a few months. So I'll just say it now.
I've wanted to draw Duke in the lingerie or whatever for well over a month now. I have a specific idea for what it looks like. Well, at least for the back. I want to draw the back.
... I lowkey feel scandalous in my recent posts. Geez, what has gotten into me? Thinking of certain stuff in a particular context.. oh heck.
And of course I have to include something about Fierdan in this post too. Ok, uh, hmm...
Ok got it.
Anyone remember a few weeks back when I made posts about a Fierdan's daughter concept?
Huh, I never drew that. Darn, what a shame.
But anyway. Fierdan in his 30s. I decided. Yes.
In his 30s, I imagine Fierdan having grown out his hair. In other words, I imagine him finally in his late 20s to early 30s having long hair again after keeping it short for so long in order to separate his present self from his past Cincernum self.
And oh god. Older Fierdan with long hair is so gorgeous. Like yes, my man! I missed your long hair, but now you're a better person. And your hair isn't a long, tangled, filthy mess like it was in Cincernum; it's long and clean and just so freaking beautiful.
He also wears glasses, at least sometimes, in his late 20s and older.
I've been thinking about long-haired Fierdan and J, and omg my heart. Fierdan resting his head on J's chest, and his hair is just spread out in all directions like what happens when you have long hair. Mm oh my god, my heart can't take it.
Just.. argh. Fierdan putting up his tough exterior around everyone else. Trying to be strong despite everything that happened. Something like #/Fuck-the-Past. Fierdan trying to be as respected among all the many characters with Elemental Powers as Ryen is. Fierdan trying to be mature and just like a normal functioning adult to get Ryen's approval and think "hey, my brother likes me after all!" because their lives beforehand haven't been that friendly to each other. Fierdan and Ryen finally becoming close, and they vent about their parents together. Their father for obvious reasons, but their mother too because she's confusing as fuck and was a pretty shitty person too. And they scream, yell, get so damn frustrated. And they cry in sadness and in anger. They bond over it. But even if Fierdan is trying to put up a tough exterior, Ryen and J see him as a softie. He's soft. He's vulnerable but that doesn't have to equal weakness. (Uh, what else?) Fierdan trying to keep this toughness up by demanding that everyone call him "Fierdan" again after hating being associated with that name for so long. Fierdan putting himself in risky and dangerous situations because he wants to prove to the rest of them that he can handle them on his own. He doesn't want to be seen as fragile and defenseless. He can take care of himself. Fierdan putting himself in situations where he could easily be imprisoned and/or killed, but he isn't scared of that. He just gets so fed up with all the shit going on and unfairness outside of the protagonist characters squad, and he wants to fight. He wants to threaten those assholes. With words, with fire. Heck, maybe he wants to beat them up if he could. Fierdan is so caught up in "change" and "justice" that he'll do anything to achieve it. Putting himself in dangerous situations all the way to acting dangerously himself. But not murder, don't worry. And despite all that, J calls Fierdan "Danny" or "Dan" in private, and Fierdan doesn't mind it if he calls him that because it's him. J's first response is one of concern, wondering if Fierdan is okay or hurt instead of feeling anger when Fierdan is out on his own at night and returns the next morning, even though J didn't like him going out and doing what he did. Because J simply doesn't want Fierdan to get hurt or worse. Damn, I love them so much. Ahh (hhhhh).
(And fyi, they don't cheat on each other. Cheaters are nasty. Fierdan isn't a nasty ass cheater. I am not going down that dark and dirty and cliché path. Though it can be interpreted as cheating because Danny/Fierdan sneaks out at night to be in situations that put himself in danger (in other words, he wants to act on his impulses), J doesn't go to thinking that he was cheated on (in other words, Fierdan having sex with another person/people?). Because. Their love. It's real.)
I'll explain in my context post for that J scene of the third skit part. What's going on and all that jazz. (mm, juicy context~)
I must be stopped.
(n/s//f/w)- vague, questionable, story concept: J and Fierdan break up at some point. They disagree and argue more, so they've parted ways. They go back together again later because they really do love each other a whole lot. Anyway, before the temporary breakup, J and Fierdan are sexually active and that only adds to how intimate (emotionally, physically) they are. They sleep together. And Fierdan grows attached to physical intimacy and skin-to-skin contact through sexual acts and lying next to another person's body. So after a while of not having J be with him, Fierdan is desperate and impulsive. He's obsessed with physical intimacy, and he just wants to not spend his nights alone. And yeah, he craves the physical contact that comes with sex. So at one point, Fierdan doesn't care that there's probably nobody who can be as emotionally available and understanding as J was/is. He doesn't care about the emotional side of things; he just wants the physical side of things. Then it's been a few weeks (probably more than just one?) after their breakup. Not everyone without an Elemental Power is the enemy/antagonist, that's only a select few. So anyway, Fierdan goes to bars and clubs. To drink and possibly get drunk, yes, but he also hopes to have one night stands. With anyone who catches his eye and is willing to have sex with him. Fierdan is hurt (sad, upset, frustrated) with J, so he seeks out opportunities to fuck or be fucked by strangers. Men or women, he doesn't care. As long as he's at least a little sexually attracted to them. So then I'm thinking of Fierdan having one night stands (sex) with men and women. *mind blanks out and dies* That'll have to happen in story 3 at some point. I.. I guess? *heck*
... whew. *cough, cough, ahem*
I spend too much time thinking about my characters and story concepts. Geez, what is with me? Horny on main or some shit?
(Send me your complaints and/or thoughts to make me feel alive.)
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