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lol nope. I'm not separating the words there. Do it yourself. I guess..?
So anyway.. know what's great? When you're not the only one in class that's struggling. That doesn't understand what to do in the work. Because, gah, that feeling is amazing. It makes me feel less alone in feeling like a complete fail (woo, existential crisis, woo :/). Which then in turn results in less anxiety. Ah.. how nice. (pfft no).
Haha yeah, I mean chemistry. That subject is quite the struggle for me. Whew..
I have so many drawing ideas in my head, but I can't find the energy (emotionally and physically) to actually go and work on them. Same with writing. Ugh, I just wanna sleep and do nothing instead, to be honest. I can't do that because of school and life and all the rest of that teenage crud.
Ya know, actually haha, this might be weird to ask. But I'll ask it. So.. um.. you guys are teens/preteens (11, 12+ ??).. right? Like I mean those of you I'm not that close with but are frequent visitors. Because, man, do I complain about (high) school a lot. I don't want to bore and scar any youngsters out there who are still living it up (lol what) in elementary school. I don't know about schooling in other countries, so I might be making this more awkward for some of you. Wow, I'm so sorry. I've been thinking about it, and I find it weird and kinda unsettling how I can have viewers of my blog who aren't even in middle school (11-12 years old at the youngest) yet. Haha, I kinda fear that I'll slip up and swear actual swear words in a post some day instead of using these substitute words. Yeah, be careful.. I know. It's hard for me to remember that when I'm.. um.. feeling strong emotions, such as sadness and anger. And I don't feel comfortable knowing that I might be saying this to a person who isn't even a preteen yet. Not like I'll say those kind of words to any of you.. I just have this habit of swearing (explicitly I mean of course) in posts where I vent and rant, to myself, and to technology. I constantly swear in my head, to be honest. And when you become old like me, that becomes the way of life for most. I also had some level of strong themes in Twinkle's Story and TEO as a whole. So I guess if you're uncomfortable with these sort of things, you wouldn't still be viewing here..? Like okay, I keep on feeling skeptical of continuing Twinkle's Story because of all the strong themes I've put in it. Frequent blood scenes, murder and mention of murder, suicide and mention of suicide, strong language in one form or another, self-harm and mention of self-harm, different types of abuse, mention of drugs, sensual content in one form or another.. that's all I can think of right now.. I have turned Twinkle's Story into such a long and messed up writing piece. I have to learn to write better and clearer.. I know that too.
Oh wow, that sure is a huge paragraph. I shall leave now. Goodbye.
~ Cutepups +×+×+×+
About the age- I'm gonna be 15 and I'm in my freshman year currently.
ReplyDeleteI don't have to take chem til' my Junior year (luckily) because I'm taking a different science class for sophomore year.
Anyway, I totally understand the swearing. I rarely (almost never) type or say swear words, but God, I constantly do in my head. >.>
& a lot of people think I'm just like, completely innocent because I don't swear. It's not that I'm afraid to or anything, I just choose not to because I'd rather not start a habit of it.
Anyway, if you need to rant, then do so. This is your blog and it's nobody's place to tell you what to post on it. Same with Twinkle's Story. Write what you want to write. I'm sure you'd rather have a few blog readers who care about your posts than a bunch of readers who only want AJ updates & shiz.
I hope your week goes well !
:) Thank you, Fang.
DeleteI'm in high school at the moment.
ReplyDeleteThe thing I don't understand is why people use the f word as an insult. I know what the f word means, it's not that offensive. Unless you're involved in traff*
I personally don't swear, I don't mind when other people do but I just don't understand how f is an insult.
Please tell me why people use it and what's it's supposed to mean. (or not, I'm not forcing you to)
Um.. what. Have this link?? lol. Oh wait never mind, haha, I'll just copy 'n paste what it says instead. Because.. yeah.. lol.
DeleteFor many people, the word f--- is extremely vulgar, considered improper and taboo in all of its senses.
Even so, various forms of the word, primarily in its nonliteral, slang senses, have increasingly crept into casual use, not only as spontaneous expletives of shock, horror, or anger, but also as verbal tics and common intensifiers, mere indices of annoyance or impatience or even pleasant surprise: Where are my f---ing keys? What the f--- is taking so long? This is f---ing awesome!Nevertheless, the term is best avoided altogether in “polite company.” The mass broadcast media have actually been forced by the threat of punitive fines to block audiences from hearing it, either by banning its use entirely or by bleeping all or part of the sound—if only by blocking out nothing more than the vowel sound in the middle.
Although its first known occurrence in writing dates from the late 1400s (disguised in a cipher at that), the word f--- was undoubtedly heard long before that, and it remains primarily a creature of the spoken language. Well into the 20th century, it was generally regarded as “unprintable,” and forms like f*** or f--k or some spelling distortion like frack or frig or fork or fug were typically substituted for it in writing. In speech, creative euphemisms abound, some born with each new generation. We now have eff and effing as well as f-word and f-bomb, all of which allow us to discuss the term without resorting to its actual use.verb (used with object)
1.
to have sexual intercourse with.
2.
Slang. to treat unfairly or harshly.
(I censored the f words through out that weren't done so already. I would link the site I got this from, but it says the f word in the url. Dictionary.com .. and just go from there?? lol. I am horrible at explaining thimgs, so there ya go. (Cutepups teaching all about profane language.. wow lol.. oh god).
Oh uhhh... Okay thanks.
DeleteLol no prob
DeleteWhat the heck is highschool.
ReplyDeletePublic school. For teens (besides ages 13 and 19). American school system. um.. hmm.. maybe you'll better understand it as secondary school?
DeleteYes, secondary school sounds better, thank you. I always thought high school was college. Hehe.
DeleteSo... What IS the difference of college and university?
College and university? Hmm.. I think those words are interchangeable. But universities are typically bigger.
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