How I'm Feeling (songs)

Excluding songs from the Blurryface album and the Hamilton album. Those two albums are ☆☆☆☆☆ to me, and they're basically my life right now.

Listen to those two albums. Justtt listennn tooo theirrr beautifulll voicesss withhh theee occasionalll heartwrenchinggg lyricsss. Do it for the Cutepups. Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!

The two songs I'm linking, too. Listen to them. My computer is crap and I'm about to go to sleep, so I can't actually put the videos into the post.. so.. deal with it.

Yes, I know the first song is more towards having bipolar disorder and/or bpd. I just was aware of what bpd (borderline personality disorder) is a few weeks ago, and for some reason to understand it better, I took this online quiz for it. It said I either had 50% or 60% bpd. On another quiz thing, it said I had 30%; another said I was "safe" from bpd. What the what. The internet is so accurate. (<< smell my stinky sarcasm).

Then I did one for avpd (avoidant personality disorder) and it said I got 80-90% avpd. Well, that's cool, online quiz thingy.. um. It also said no one can be diagnosed with avpd until they're an adult. So.. okay then.

(EDIT 3/18: I took a more detailed-looking online test (not like I believe what they say.. only to a certain small extent because reasons) today, and it said 47% bpd and 64% avpd for me, which is slightly higher percentages than normal, according to what it said. Why am I typing about this? Because I'm in an everlasting state of unsatisfaction and boredom of life.)

But.. I don't care, I am addicted to these songs (in these versions.. the most). And hey, I feel black and white, trapped inside myself, emotions are all wild even though I appear to be dull and boring which is why I'm trapped within myself because I can't get myself to explain the.. the things into words. So why not. Oh and in the second song, just switch the math and science part with the english part, and it's accurate for me. So yeah, haha, enjoy.

Or not. I don't care, I'm so tired. I'm pretty sure I made a post last year about how I had this 6+ hour band competition. I had it tonight (3/16). Very long indeed it was. Ohhh boyyy.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cQKGUgOfD8U
[Vocaloid Original] ECHO [Gumi English]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nZHXSN6lEEw
Lost One's Weeping (English Cover) [JudyPhonic] 

Love. Love. Love. Music. (I love the music.)

*head falls dramatically ugly onto pillow*

See ya.

*screams into the void for a few seconds*

Yeah.. bye.

~ Cutepups ♡

(PS: It's okay if you're not into my music tastes. It's fine. We're all different individuals, anyways.)