changing

(I don't know what to title this, so. Thanks for clicking anyway.)

So. Hey guys (girls, nonbinary pals ;>). Welcome to this lovely little post.

I just realized that it's raining. Great, it's gonna be so wet out tomorrow morning. Ugh.

I registered to take the SAT for real. Man, were there a lot of steps.

So now that's over with. No more lecturing me about registering for the SAT. Yay, no more.

Now it's onto where to go to for summer vacation. Which states to visit for colleges. It's my turn now. Oh boy.

Yeah anyway.

Is the Daily Puppy not updating for anyone else? Or just me? The puppies aren't changing for me. I'm disappointed. I want more puppies to be the Cute Pup of the Day.

And now onto the title. Changing. Huh?

Well, I like to think that's what this blog is all about. It keeps on changing. From when I started to where I am now, the blog changed a lot. I changed a whole lot.

It's pretty wild. Looking at myself on this blog in 2014 is so weird. Like honestly I sometimes can't believe that used to me. I used to be that way.

Learning. Growing. Changing. That's what life is. Lifelong actions.

Well, a goal of mine for this new year of 2017 is, to be summarized in one word, progress.

The past is in the past. It can't be altered or removed. It happened, it happened. Reclaiming it back is impossible. Sometimes, especially for me, realizing that is painful. But staying in the past instead of moving forward gets to be more painful than moving on.

I like to think that as previous years. And right now, especially 2015 and 2016. Went down a lot in those years. Many bad times. Just plain awful, man. Do not recommend.

For 2017 instead of continuing the circle and going backward, my goal this year is to break free of that circle and go forward.

Hope. That's the only way I think I'll be able to start achieving that.

Negativity. Self-destructive mindset. Typing out things that only make me feel worse.

What's the point in that? I don't like hurting. It's hard to live that way.

I still definitely have ways to go. I still have high levels of neuroticism. Bad things are still there. I'm just trying to not make them directly on the surface anymore.

I want to try new posting ideas this year. Positivity. Be helpful. Be a bright and kind person.

It's already making me feel a little better.

Yeah. 2017. The year of self-improvement. How long will I stay true to my word? With all the stresses of 2017 for me, I'm not sure how it'll last.

I also just recently watched this mental health video. And it opened my eyes. Geez. I relate, unfortunately.

Dreaming, sleeping.. connected to that? Like yeah, I remember certain parts of my dreams last night throughout the entire day. I feel like my dreams are pretty long. I don't actually feel well-rested for the entire time I'm supposedly sleeping. I suddenly wake up at random times in the middle of the night. I'm not still. And that can actually mean something? That's wild.

I should probably try and sleep now.

Bye now. ☆