i'm rotting it's fine :)

Hi.

So we all know how the Daily Puppy isn't updating anymore, right? Well, I found an alternative site where we can go to in order to see the Cute Pup of the Day.

Like. That's the name of the site basically.

Link: http://cutepuppyoftheday.com

Yes. Good. Puppies make life better.

I've also started liking more TV shows. Ah, ha ha.

I have such a fragile sense of identity. It's so funny. I read someone criticizing something I like, and then I feel stupid for liking said thing. Then I automatically think I'm wrong as always. Man, my mind sure is a good pal. Nah lol.

It's also pretty weird. Personalities. Having one? Huh, that's wild. One I live with that I have only when I'm alone with myself, one when in public and/or having to talk to people, and one at home with family. It's kinda hard to catch up with all of them. Gotta love contradicting each other. Ugh oh man. I hate how I do these certain things when talking to people and I want to stop, but I still do it. I don't want to.

Guess that's why I feel like I'm always lying. It's like I'm always lying when talking to people.

Why do I let people use me so easily lmao?

Feelings of disconnection. Fun lol.

About last post, I realized I only drew ears on Duke on that drawing. Oops lmao.

By the way. I know. Ok. I know. The sad anxious loser knows.

I cringe every time I make a post related to Twinkle's Story. The next day, at least. The art, the writing, me being passionate about it (or at least giving that impression off).. it's stupid.

It's stupid. It makes me cringe, hours after posting them.

I hate it all. I still like it. Heh, I don't know anymore.

I'm getting stuck on how to write the next chapter. Great.

Maybe I just want to go back to the days when I wrote the story. Maybe I feel so empty in life that I'm just going to TV shows and the story in order for me to feel something other than the same boring routine that's everyday life. I don't know.

I'm so angry and stressed over the state of America. Ugh god. How can this year be the year of self-improvement and recovery when there's everything going on?

I thought I did decent on a quiz. Turns out I failed.

Gotta love when that happens. Gotta love saying goodbye to that B in math.

Ha, ha, haaaaa. :))))

I also think I'm getting sick. Ugh, kids.

Earlier today, I felt like the equivalent of a body rotting.

It was gross.

So much dry skin is falling off my arms today.

I'm rotting lol.

Even when soaking in water and putting on moisturizers, my skin is still dying and falling off.

I'm looking at the arm where it's worse. Kinda in the mood to peel off skin.

I always feel guilty, so my stomach always is like in the background hurting. In the foreground is my nose. Making it hard to sleep.

I woke up at 4 am thinking it was two hours later.

I go to sleep at midnight, and yet here I am waking up so early.

I have a test tomorrow. End me, kill me. Heal me, save me.

Uh, what else? Since I'm usually feeling guilty about something, I've been thinking of writing a poem about it. Guilt.

It's funny how much I don't have any self-esteem.

I think everyone's a better person than me. By that I mean better at being a human. Not like behavior or anything. Umm. It's like. Can I even human? I'm not sure.

Cute little positivity things and those "reasons to stay alive" lists barely affect me. They're cute, sure. But hey, didn't really change anything. It's not for me. Doesn't fit right.

I'm gonna try and rot to sleep.

: )