I have plenty of other non-story thoughts. But for this post, I’ll just focus on some (definitely not all) of my thoughts about my characters.
Except for this thought: ok so. I have a new creative writing assignment. And this time, I’m actually stuck on how to do it. Like.. huh, I really don’t know what to write.
Oh and this one too: I’m going home this upcoming weekend and the weekend after that too. ayy yay home baby!!
....... @ brain: shush
brain: ok
Anyway, I was going to organize my thoughts better and write long posts about each of these thoughts I have about my characters. But hey, never mind that. Have this mess instead.
I had these thoughts for more than 3 days. Wow.
ok ok ok
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For a while, I’ve been thinking of Ryen as being generally emotionless.
But then fairly recently I realized that might be actually pretty shitty for me to do to him.
Especially since I’ve been thinking of him as one of my main aromantic characters.
(and ayy, I’m aro too! *high-fives Ryen*)
Because you know what? The stereotype that aros are emotionless heartless monsters is very, very bad.
(me is aro,, “aroaroaro” is what plays in my head whenever irl romance pops up in conversation)
So my point is that I don’t see Ryen as being cold and emotionless anymore. Yay.
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Sometimes I think ‘J’ and Ardere are very similar.
But then I think more deeply about them.
And I realize that they’re pretty different.
Perhaps.. a lot. Big differences between the two.
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Ryen had/has anger issues.
Ryen was/is traumatized.
Twinkle was/is traumatized.
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‘J’ is gay.
Haha, that rhymes! XD
He is.
Yes.
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I feel that lately I’ve been thinking a lot of the ‘J’ and Fierdan relationship.
*glances at my playlist for ‘J’*
Ok but seriously. There’s so, so, so much more to ‘J’ as a character than eventually being Fierdan’s lover. In fact, their relationship is such a small part of it. They don’t even become boyfriends until much, much later.
‘J’ has a life outside of Fierdan. Surprise, surprise.
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I’ve also been thinking a lot about this Fierdan’s daughter concept.
I have lots of thoughts about it now.
Ok but- two daughters. Hmm. Hmmmmm—
Not too sure about that.
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Daughters. No sons.
Having girls would disappoint Z the shit man.
It destroys his agenda.
*cough* Z hates women. *cough*
... that’s why I made Fierdan kill him. *cough*
uh wtf does any of this mean, Cutepups?
ah.. :’)
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Daddy Fierdan though like what a concept huh
;) wink wonk ;) wink wonk ;) wink wonk
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I was planning on making this lengthy and detailed and quality post of my unofficial April 2019 list of the psychological disorders my main characters have.
And then I didn’t make that post. Oops.
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It’s Monday.
Gross.
:(
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I have so much shit to say about this Fierdan’s daughter concept.
It’s so damn complicated to explain.
*sigh, sigh*
What shall I do?
I can’t think.
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It’s probably not what you think it is.
... he’s not always with her *cough* she visits him sometimes *cough* she lives with her mother (who, yes, becomes Fierdan’s girlfriend at some point) but Fierdan doesn’t actually live with them because *insert list of reasons here* ... *cough* this is going down the route of biological daughter btw oops forgot to mention that lol ... *cough* but.. problematique?
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omg please read this
ily fellas
u rock!
<3
platonic love!! yeah baby!!
woooooo
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Oh, oh!!
Fierdan in his late twenties and early thirties.
And he’s starting to calm down.
Haha omg just imagine him going by Dan.
That’s pretty wild.
Him signing paperwork and doing adult stuff like bills and taxes and contracts and not that inappropriate adult stuff and where was I going with this
Fierdan’s daughter’s teacher: *talking to Fierdan at a conference* What’s your name?
30-something year old Fierdan wearing glasses and looking so official and put together and trauma doesn’t rule every aspect of his life anymore and he’s happy to be alive and no longer suicidal and fuck I might start crying—: Dan.
Me: aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck!!!!!!!! ;o; <3 omg!
*collapses out of my bed and onto the floor*
Holy shit, I love him. I am proud of my fire man. :’D
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I can no longer articulate my thoughts.
I won’t reveal the ‘J’ past content yet.
That means content about his past.
That means his childhood/adolescence.
It’s my secret for now. >:)
Damn, I love that kid.
... wow, I type “that” a lot. I’m just like, “that that that that that that that that that that that—“
umm what
that
:•)
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Talk to me! Give me your thoughts so I can feed off them!
I’m a gremlin. uwu
... I have poem ideas!
ok that means it’s time for me to sleep.
g’night.
~ Cutepups
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