I can't draw Duke today :^(

Oh, I guess I should vaguely explain. 

Ever since yesterday afternoon afternoon, I had a headache, even though I drank water and took an afternoon nap too. I think I woke up then because, like I said, it was way too warm and it was hard to breathe because my body just (doesn't) work like that sometimes. 

And finally a little before halfway through the school day, my headache went away. 

The past few days (especially Wednesday), my friend was disappointed in me because I'm a dumb fool. And like, I'm not good enough lol but that doesn't matter anymore. We handed in our project. Hope we got an A+. A 100. (lol pls) 

May 1st is college decision day. Yeah yikes yeet,,, ooohh boyyy. I already committed to a school (of course), but ever since I did (in late March) I've been worrying if I made the best choice for myself. Like,, college,, dang. I'm so scared. (lol help me pls) 

Anyway, I'm gonna talk about those two skits I just posted. Yeah! 

• Somehow, I think it's clever for me to try and attempt to put lines of a different language for certain dialogue lines.. that, and I'm being a total dumbass who should just stop. I just don't want Fierdan to say certain lines in plain old boring English because.. idfk, it's not authentic-sophisticated-mm my talented boy oh worms. (uhh, wtf?) 

• I realized that "stella" also means "star" in Italian. Yeah uh ok then. I swear if I made Fierdan said something inaccurate, I will die XD. 

• I said Spanish because I took Spanish classes in school. My dumb ass self thought of writing lines in languages I don't know how to even type. Like.. idfk.. an Asian language,, because idfk (- wait, shoot, no). Uhh.. that's a bad idea, C Pup. 

• Cutepups Logic 2018 version: "plans" on "majoring" in "English" to become a "creative writer" (or whatever the fvck) when I don't even know how to "write" literally anything anymore. So, mm, that's the tea! (*insert picture of me sobbing while sipping my organic calm tea and munching on the tea leaves in the bag*) 

• So that's also why I literally have an identity crisis every day. (#what the actual heck am i doing with my life) 

• So I pathetically try to keep my motivation and inspiration to story write by frequently making skits with plot lines now. And why I write about my characters so much. Gotta,, you know,, have that passion to write. Since that's like my future supposedly. But anyway, I'm doomed. (god, why did i do this to myself? ....... is god real? XD) 

• Today, in the gym locker room: My classmate talking to my other classmates (no way omg,, yes): So then in [sorry, my memory sucks] class, he [Mr. H] said, "Is god real?" because we were getting off topic. (so that happened.) 

• I keep on having this daydream that someone from tumblr.hell finds this blog o' heck of mine. And then this person makes a post that's like- Everything Problematic About Twinkle's Story. And the person expects me to cry about it, but then I read it like "lmao true but you forgot to mention these 20 other things." 

• Plot twist in the real realm: I hate the story because it's so problematic jfc. 

• I swear I was just lying on my bed, thinking about how all my characters are amazing actors. And I was like.. wow, the story isn't real. And then I imagined the Duke, Twinkle, Fierdan, Ryen, and Dawn actors having their own charity. And I was like, omg I love these people. Like.. damn. I forgot what the charity was for though, but I think it was to help children escape abuse.. uh, fight child abuse. Because, like, apparently my dumbass brain decided to technically make those characters be what I wrote as abused (it first autocorrected to "cursed" pfft not now, phone) when they were what I called kids. And then I almost cried about this. (uhhhh,,,, get help, cutepups. please.) 

• Oh, that reminds me. I also hate myself because I know this certain classmate of mine has their life a lot worse and horrible. And I'm like,, fvcking kill me self, boi! Hhhhhnggh I feel Bad. 

• I'm getting tired of these bullet points. I'll stop that now. 

Oh and yeah, most of the characters' names are nicknames. 

(more bullet points lmao. nickname : real/birth name. uhh.. birth,, wtf.)

• Fierdan/Danny : Daniel 

• Ryen : Aryen 

• Duke : D__Uri__K__E___ Fierdan (lol yeah, Duke is just the acronym of cryptic words Fierdan yell-sang-chanted (wtf) in Cincernum one day when he was (high on black goop) with that demonic bastard, Soulless. I'm just gonna call Soulless a demonic bastard from now on, thank you very much. I first made Fierdan said it a few months ago, haha. After the whole DUKE, it's just Fierdan. So it's.. DUKE Fierdan. Duke is a version of Fierdan, so what did you expect lol? His own original organic name? Lol nah. This boy doesn't deserve that. And Fierdan is just a nickname of Daniel (somehow, I don't get my fire boy's thinking patterns ;;.), so Duke is really just a more complex nickname of Daniel. Why Daniel? Because.. damn Daniel, that's why now eff off XD. Jk, jk.) 

• Twinkle : Stella 

• Dawn : Dawn 

• Finny : Finny (or.. Finn) 

• yeah uh, i haven't thought this through for anyone else. whoops. 

Thanks for reading today's version of whatever the fvck I just typed up there. :) 

After school today, I felt like drawing scenes from those past two recent skits I wrote. 

I first drew Finny, then I drew Ardere, and then I drew Duke. Haha, I gave up on him. Duke, I already draw him so much already. 

I was too tired to draw anyone else. 

Just a doodle. Me and my bad art skills. Mm. 

It's supposed to be the scene in the beginning of this skit before Twinkle comes in. 

http://thejamaamist.blogspot.com/2018/04/uhh-skit.html?m=1

Light // Dark because Finny and Ardere symbolize being "light" characters, and Duke (and Fierdan as well, but I didn't draw him here) symbolize being "dark" characters. 

I love these boys. ;v; <3 

I couldn't decide on how to draw Duke's hair. I wanted to draw him with his shorter hair style- but his hair being all dark brown/black. 

Ardere.. he's okay I guess. Not a fan on how I drew him. 

Finny looks the best because I drew him first. 

So yeah lol here: 

What is art?? Bad, bad, bad. Bad!! 

Finny is supposed to be an inch or two taller than Duke. Ardere is supposed to be way shorter than Finny and Duke. I feel like I always draw Duke's head bigger than the other characters, and I hate myself for that too. 

I really want to draw the ultimate fierdan pose deluxe buy it for $9.99. Remind me to do that some time. Thanks. 

Damn :/. I drew Duke looking fvcking drunk again (drunkie! :/). He looks.. dead. I love making fun of him when looking at my bad art of him. It's funny and makes me feel bad too! He's shrugging. That's why his shoulder is raised like that. Just imagine him shrugging and being like, "oh! hahaha, i haven't slept in days either because of nightmares and cutepups made me traumatized again! existential crisis! wahoo!" (..... when are you gonna get that therapy, cutepups?) 

Ardere's head is too small. He looks too short. I'm sorry, my lightning sunshine boy. ;-;

I don't know why I drew Finny wearing khakis. Just roll with it. Finny can wear whatever he so pleases. 

Ardere has some freckles because why not. Let him be. My cheerful son. 

Mock how I drew Duke in the comments below! (#what a looser :^3) 

.. i know what i said. 

Bye.