hi.
o.k.
That skit, huh? Mm omg.
Damn, that was deep.
Know what's also deep? This sense that I'm drowning.
Haha, I can barely breathe. : )
Yeah. Whatever.
I feel awful again. Lol.
I sleep (or attempt to sleep) more, but that only results in more headaches. And they won't go away.
And it hurts, god damn it.
I really feel like the only one who gives a sh¡t is my cat.
Anyway, so yeah. Those other languages in that skit though.
Hearing Fierdan/Duke(/Soulless?) speaking other languages (besides boring freaking English) in my head gives me life. Their voices.. hot damn.
Viewers: *just give up on me (lol who hasn't) and leave*
But yeah. Kinda been thinking of using Spanish and Latin for certain.. stuff.
Because English? ...nah.
Plot twist/spoiler/whatever the fvck: Twinkle is really just a nickname for Stella. But Twinkle doesn't really know that until.. much later.
Yeah.
It's 2 am, but I was sleeping before. I just woke up around 40 minutes ago or something.
It's way too warm in here. I can barely breathe. My head hurts so much. I feel like absolute sh¡t.
......... friends,,,,, what the actual fvck. lol!! what's that like??
hit me tf up.
gotta love being a fvck up!! gotta love never being good enough!! gotta love never doing anything right!! gotta love never being and doing enough!! gotta love how they really just stay your friend out of pity!! gotta love how you made her hate you!!
when will i not want to die? lol.
why are all my good friends people from online? why do all people in person bore me so much and aren't fun? why can't my friend ever be fun?
like..lol..why.
fvck friends who make you feel like you're never enough. fvck friends who make you feel like sh¡t. fvck friends who rant/vent to you, but you know you can't do the same despite what they might say at another time.
i don't think i'll ever be comfortable sharing/expressing/exposing my whole self to anyone besides my friends over the internet. which basically means i doubt i'll ever be comfortable being myself around any "friend" i make in person.
which is a terrible way to live! but whatever, fvck it. fvck this sh¡t.
jokes on me. thinking i can go a week feeling good. lol that ain't happening!
...........,,,,,,,,::::::;;;;;;;;;;;;
regretregretregrettegretregretregretregretregretregretrrgretregretregretregretregretregretregretregretregretregret
go and.. delete myself.
psst,, i'm really only so dramatic/emotional on here because i refuse to be anywhere else. no one would like that. me, expressing my true thoughts and feelings? bad idea, it's bad, can't do that.
might die.
it's almost may. :^)
fvck. fvck. fvck.
bye.
"k."
ReplyDeleteWell, Potassium to you too, mate.
... Sorry, just wanted to say something.
*Shhh I'm not here you didn't see anything-*
me: Potassium?? .... *realizes the atomic symbol for Potassium is K* oh yes, true that. Clever.
DeleteOmg yes pls Latin and spanish that would be amazing and also I'm sorry u feel that way sometimes I don't like to tell ppl anything either but they tell me things and vent to me but i can't feel like i can do the same yaknow?
ReplyDeleteme, struggling to come up with a proper response: ah thanks <3"
Deleteyeah ahh, i hate being this way. like i can be around people that openly talk about their feelings to people face-to-face.. lol how do they do that? no idea. and sometimes i want to talk about myself more openly and personally, but it's hard to, to say the least. and it makes me feel like i'm lying to them and myself somehow. yeah ugh.