life and blog stuff wow!

I couldn't decide on a title yet again. 

Monday sucked. Tuesday was better. 

Why? Well, because...

I got to see and pet therapy dogs with my classmate friend between classes. 

The dogs are very good boys. They're so cute. I love them. <3 

In our drama class, we got the opportunity to use fencing swords. For play scenes. 

Tableu vivant. Romeo and Juliet. I kept on being chosen to play Tybalt every time. I thought that was funny. Except when I presented mine (as a director, that's what the whole thing's about). 

I got to hold a sword. And use it as a stage prop like for battle and death scenes. It was great. Swords are great. 

Last week, we did the same thing but other classmates were the directors. I was also cast as Tybalt then (which is so funny to me still? like??). But I had to use a pen to act as a sword that stabbed.. the guy Tybalt stabs (? sorry I'm bad with Shakespearean names lol). 

my brain: *just think you're acting as Fierdan when he stabs people with his sword* 

me: *just ends up giggling, can't stay serious for longer than a minute in the pose*

I just can't be my Fierdan fire man. Oh darn. :-(

Well, that's a relief. I simply can't be like my violent killer characters. I'm separate from them. I'm not a person who'll fatally stab people with swords. Phew. 

LOL 

I just think how from my story writing and plans (and my skits too) you guys might think I'm able to act like my beloved characters (Fierdan, Duke, Dawn, Twinkle are the ones I think of who hold swords and stab people and/or things). But no, I can't. Not at all. I tried, I really did. Oops. 

It's just.. a dark story? I mean, I guess it has to be. With everything that happens and all. 

Yeah so. That ain't me. I just have.. interesting choice of thoughts for when I write fiction. It's also weird because I didn't always know how much I like stories with violence and darker themes than lighthearted stories. Wow huh. 

me, from the behavior I display around other people I may consider friends irl: *is a goof, giggles too easily, can't physically look angry if I'm not genuinely feeling angry (though I do feel anger frequently imo lol), is probably holding swords wrong, looks like a person who won't watch tv shows/movies with graphic violence (? idk lol)* 

me@me: LOL 

other people: ok so i'm watching friends again for the seventh time on netflix! what about you? :p

me, blanking out the last shows i watched on netflix, then blurts out: oh, castlevania. (???) 

what a social interaction! it killed me. 

I'm just imagining them searching castlevania on netflix and then being like: daMN WHAT THE FU--!

me: *laughs at myself to cope with life so I won't end up killing myself* :-) 

That happened a few weeks ago, actually. 

(silly cutepups :p) 

I have art. Here's one thing I drew. 

I'm sorry, I just love Duke so much. I love Duke so damn much. 

Duke! :D <3 (wtf ily) 

This is the first time I drew Duke with his not-nearly-black hair and think he looks good in a while. (oh damn, hot boy) 

The pose may be questionable, just roll with it. Let him be. 

This is when he recently turned 17. 

I just had to draw singer/songwriter Duke. It's like canon. 

One hand holding the sheet music. One hand holding a microphone. An earbud in his ear. Red and black armbands to cover his wrists (for aesthetic purposes and.. something else *coughs*). Gold chain necklace because I wrote that he has one (apparently?). 

I drew Duke and he looks cute. I drew him looking somewhat decently attractive (how I picture him <3 i'm a cryin') with short hair. 

Ok maybe I didn't want to draw his nose and mouth for a third time. I drew two other little pictures of Duke before this one. 

This one is probably my favorite though. 

Duke's regular talking voice annoys me sometimes. Because, well, he says things that are annoying. 

But his singing voice? How I imagine him singing is so damn good. Duke talking might make my ears bleed at times, but he sure can sing. 

viewers: uh ok sure he can :/

me: Excuse you, Duke is a great singer! 

viewers: *nod though unconvinced* 

hhhhhhhfffghgh 

By the way, I made a new poll. It's at the top right of the blog. -->^ 

I suddenly got the thought to. I probably won't do anything until winter break so don't expect me to create anything right away. 

I started listening to playlists on Spotify that are themed around someone's characters. They're so cool. 

I made that recent music post because I found songs on one of those playlists and thought of Duke. 

(Pfft, Duke strikes again.) 

I have More Thoughts about him, so I ended up loving him even more. 

I'll go into that stuff at another time. 

As for now, I'm hitting the pillow. Good night.