More poetry~
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Is it new?
Is it old?
I haven't felt it in so long
I thought today would
Try to kill me
But look at that irony
I feel slightly more alive
Well for today at least
I mean I didn't think about
Death and not wanting to exist anymore
That much today
Well that's a start
A start in the good and right direction
It's been a good day
I've done good
I've felt good
I am good
I woke up full of anxiety
I was so scared
Everything didn't feel right
But now the day has almost passed
I almost feel calm now
Actually calm
So calm that I think that
I'll be okay
And mean it for real
After living and feeling like
Everything is wrong
That everything about me is wrong
This is different
I missed this feeling
I already know it's temporary
It could vanish when I wake up tomorrow
Oh but who am I to know what the future holds?
But in this moment
I feel right
Oh but will this good feeling stay?
Probably not
But I'm gonna embrace it while it's still here
I write poetry when I'm emotional
I don't tend to write when I'm emotionally happy
So maybe that's why my
Sad poetry is much longer
I feel sad so much longer and with much more intensity
Than the times when I'm close to happy
My happier poems are shorter
Because those feelings tend to only stay for
A very limited time
But I'm still holding onto these expired coupons of happiness
And I'll do whatever it takes
To not let them go away forever
Even though it's hard to find those happiness coupons
I've got to remember that they're still stuck in there somewhere
I found them today and I will find them again
Good day
Good night
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