Mmmmrghfgh

Who made that last post? Me? Hmm, who are they? Don't know them.

Honest ranty vent session is over for today.

Hopefully.

Omg I said I would make that post short, but then I went and typed it for around 50 minutes. Smh Cutepups. 

I'm still sad though. Wtf don't invalidate my sadness and cravings of death, too guys. XD 

First post from yesterday: listened to Paralyzed by NF on repeat. (that made me want to write "I'm paralyzed" so many times lol)

Second post from yesterday: thinking of VLD's Keith vlog. ("idk why I'm this way" lol)

I slept for less than 5 hours. Oh gee.

Anyway,,,,,

I feel like my art class is gonna kill me (or make me want to... die) tomorrow. I don't really feel like explaining why I feel that way. Let's just say I'm stupid when it comes to clay and making pots. Geez, I feel so bad. I feel like mine destroyed hers. ;-; sorry,,,,,

I hate B days, wtf. :( XD 

Oh and the math teacher I have now isn't gonna stay much longer. Turns out my real math teacher is a strict person who yells at people. Haha.. great. Math is gonna be hell yet again. :"}

I'm so scared, wtf. :0 :( 

So then that'll mean I'll have two strict teachers back to back... f a n t a s t i c.

Lmao when people tell me indirectly that I shouldn't be sad, oops sorry lol. Doesn't make me any less sad. Doesn't make me passively think of killing myself less. Whoops.

I don't think that anyone truly understands how fvcked I am in life nowadays. I'm so fvcked. My life is screwed.

What else........

Oh. That.

When I said I hate my art and that my art is bad, I was saying that as a general statement about my newest art. I hate it so much, sorry lol.

But then I just finished fixing up one half of my newest drawing to accompany that Grief post. Duke in this form looks so different than what any of you guys would view him as. 

It's towards the very end of the story. Duke actually looks like a guy and not a girl, lmao. His body looks messed up because it's after the torture chapters and deaths. Post- R+T... damn son. 

Oh and his face might look even more messed up because of the overpowering Soulless. Duke is like their vessel, I guess. So.. yeah, how unfortunate.

I still hate the first half of the drawing a lot. I messed it up so much. I'll try to fix it though.

Oh and if you didn't get my memo, I'm gonna make those two characters I mentioned in that Grief post die in the story. At very different times though. And no, Duke doesn't kill them. Neither does Fierdan. They die from other reasons. Ah yes, pain. Ouch.

Ardere's death: Duke- loud reaction, screaming, crying, messy hair, can't properly escape

Finny's death: Duke- silent reaction, numb, mostly emotionless, doesn't have much hair, can walk, stays to take Finny out of the rubble and smoke

Me: makes my blond characters die or already be dead

Huh.. oh hmm... ahh........ 

Ugh, I got work to do. I'll be back here later. 

~ Cutepups