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Hey.

It's pretty ironic, I think. In the afternoon, I have so many short post ideas. 

But then later on in the day, I distract myself and lose that motivation to actually create those blog posts.

Ugh, I frustrate myself. Ahh.

I really don't mean to go a few days with no new posts- it just happens. Time passes, and I forget to post. 

For around a month or two now, I've had personal poems in mind. But when I actually go write or type a poem, I am only able to post good story poetry. I have plenty of poems about Fierdan. 

In single words, here are more Fierdan poems I have in mind: 

- Lions

- Angels

- Purge

Yeah. Vague.

I kept on thinking about Fierdan today. 

Am I obsessed with this character? Yeah, probably. 

As for why I said Duke and Fierdan are not exactly and purely similar, well, I'll explain it in another post. I'm typing this at midnight. I should sleep now instead of typing this dumb post.

I've been thinking. It's pretty cool how I have such a specific and exact vision of how my characters (well, as humans- I only view my characters as humans now) look throughout the story. I also have a specific voice for each of them. 

But no matter how hard I try to find a celeb/actor/whoever to compare how they look to how closely they look like to how I imagine what my characters look like, I can't find anyone who really matches enough to my high standards. Same goes for their voices.

All of my characters look so beautiful. I love their voices. 

I imagine Duke and Fierdan looking and sounding a little different. Not as much different as compared to other characters, but there's still a difference. 

I wish I could actually draw well realistically, so I can draw and accurately show you guys how my characters look and how their appearances change throughout the story (just talking about story 1- Twinkle's Story- for now since their appearances change so many times).  

Gosh, I'm so in love with Fierdan's voice. Dang. 

Duke's too, but not as much. Haha.

Oh and also Twinkle's, Dawn's, and.. Taurel's.

Their voices. <3 <3 I'm in love. 

This is probably a weird thing to read, but I see and hear my characters so specifically and vividly. 

I could start typing about other stuff, but I'm gonna end this post here.

Bye for now. 

~ Cutepups