So!

Hey guys! ;o; 

This part from my dream from last night. Messed up as usual. HahahahahahHA

Oh boy.

So I dreamed I was in my math classroom. (This is all in my dream, by the way!*). And my math teacher said his birthday was next class. I read the board. It said he was turning 16. My math teacher is an old/middle-aged man, by the way. So I went home like what the heck? and.. I forgot what happened then lol sorry. Next thing I remember is next math class, and I have this birthday cake with too much white icing and.. cake. Then when another student asks him why he wrote he was turning 16 on the board (I'm too quiet and shy to do anything myself, ha~), he laughs and says the 1 was actually a 5. So that makes it 56. I don't know my teacher's age though. So, again, ???? my brain at night. Then when we were working on math problems, I got out my heavily frosted birthday cake. So then I just smacked it in the teacher's face. Yeah, I really don't know, man. I think I was overthinking on how he could be 16 which is the students' age too much and didn't sleep or something. Like, that took over my life. Those 2 days. So then everyone, even said teacher, smiled when I smacked a cake into his face. It was all good from there. I think. That's all I remember from that dream.

Yeah.. weird. Brain, why you like this? Why...

That feel when you cough too much at one time, and you suddenly start crying. That was me just now. Wet eyes now. Wow.

Oh and does anyone remember me complaining last July about my work at this day camp? So yeah, I filled out an application for it again this year, but able to get money and all that. So turns out, I didn't get the job this time. So.. yeah. Oh well. Meh.

About them rants, this one I have an idea for the most. Well, um, it's kinda(?) about.. dark stuff. Triggering things. It's not like I'm being cold-hearted (I don't think I am). It's.. idk I'm an anxious mess that can't help thinking that people will think I'm being selfish/pathetic/a complainer. But it's not too bad. Just how things happen.. well, it bothers me sometimes. Gah.. it's hard to explain without saying specifically what I want to rant about. Because I don't want to tell you guys yet. 

So anyway, just saying. Rants I'm thinking of typing out could be involving a triggering topic. Triggering..? I don't know what else to call it. Depressive intentions? Suicidal intentions? Basically, by "triggering" I mean more on the violent and language sides of things. I don't know, when I think of ranting I constantly swear in my head. I'll try to keep it toned down on here though. But it's not about those things. It's more about.. what people say. It's hard to explain. 

It involves two words: "attention" and "friends". That's all I'll hint about it in this post. 

It doesn't invalidate any person's existence/identity. I'm not that kind of person to do stuff like that. I think that's wrong. It's more on actions than the people. 

Yeah, I'll probably be nervous that I told you guys this. Haha oops. 

I'm tired and stressed over quite a few things. 

Today wasn't as happy-go-lucky(?) as yesterday and Monday. But it wasn't that bad. So.. meh.

Comment.. hmm.. something good that happened to you today (well, whenever you read this). Or something positive. 

Thanks in advance! ;^;