Tear Out The Fallen Spirit

New poem.

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Tear it all out
The insecurities 
The doubt
The impotence 
The thoughts
Annihilate them all 
Make it gone
Get rid of everything
Now 

Poisonous blood
Everyone falls
Down the rabbit hole 
There's a fire
Growing bigger and bigger
It's getting hard to breathe
It hurts so much
Make it stop 

Tear it all out
The flaws
The silence
The tension
The havoc running loose 
Obliterate the past
Tear myself apart

More ghost than human
Fallen spirit
Covered in a blue veil
This is no marriage 
So silent
So invisible
All alone
Me, my thoughts, and I 

Myself- who is she?
Copy everyone around me
Identity built up by others
Just passing by
So innocent
Only to steal 
Hate me already
No good here
Let go

Please stay
I love you so
First comes anger
Then comes sadness
Followed by this cloudy numbness 
Everyone keeps falling and leaving
It's my fault they've gone away
Please stay 

Former human 
Throw it all away
Flickering lights
Blinding my eyes
Invisible due to the silence
I'm a fallen spirit
Tore myself apart
Nothing's left
There never was anything
Underneath the blue veil
Since I just stole everything
From you and everyone else

Now I shall disappear 
Though I always was invisible to you, anyways 
Since you refused to care
You threw me to the flames
Down the rabbit hole 
Hope you take care
Goodbye.