So.

Hello.

I slept horribly this Wednesday morning. Barely any sleep.

Headaches, stomachaches, heartaches.. all these aches.

I was so mad earlier today. Now, well, not as much. What's there left to say?

What is there left to say? Haha, the results. Hysterical.

Hysterical that so many people in this country would like a man that degrades and separates people by who they are as the next president.

Hysterical how the Democratic and Republican parties are falling apart in their own ways.

Hysterical how fellow Americans think it's not that big a deal if women and "minorities" might lose their rights. Their basic human rights.

Hysterical how you have to be at least 18 years old to vote and yet 11 thousand people wrote in a name of a dead gorilla in the voting ballots.

Hysterical how fellow students of mine can smile, laugh, and even celebrate the winner of this election. Boys, girls, it doesn't matter. In a blue state.

Hysterical knowing Congress and the next president will be run by Republicans.

Hysterical how thinking of overturning laws that gave certain groups of people basic human rights comes back into play in the upcoming year, 2017.

Hysterical having so many people fear for their lives.

Hysterical how there are so many acting like this is a joke.

Yeah. It's just a joke, right? The future of America is just a joke, huh?

Hysterical.

Disgusting. All of it.

Along with a lot of other people, I feel embarrassed about what's happening in the country. Can barely stand the idea of living and surviving in a country that's focused on so much hate and prejudice.

I had to rant about all this damn election politics crap 4+ times today. Why not add one more to this miserable blog?

This year. I swear. It's killing me.

Trump being elected next president by the electoral college (not even the freaking popular votes). Wow. Unbelievable.

Whelp, that's it, guys. Guess my brain would like to make that happen now that it has become a reality.

Wow, 2016. F*** you. The worst outcome had to happen.

No. I won't make it a reality. However, do I feel more like doing it more than ever now? Of course.

I'd rather want out of a world that has fallen into such hate and despair. The idea that for 4 goddamn years certain people will be fearing for their lives due to their rights being taken away.

Makes me want to- as that character of mine once said-

~I wanna f***ing die.~

Die.

Hopeless? That's damn right.

I can't fathom how 2016 can make me feel more hopeless after this.

Knowing me though, some crap is gonna happen. And bam! All new low for hopelessness and faith in humanity.

Ha, ha. :))

I was so freaking mad at everyone and everything a few hours ago that I couldn't help but hit my hands on hard objects- like walls- until they became red. Temporarily. You know. That. Because. I was mad. Still am mad. Always will be mad.

Life. Sucks.

Distracting myself with happier things doesn't really help. When I know. The world is practically gonna be in ruins.

Totally makes life worth it.

Yeah sure whatever.

Just want to leave and get out of it before any of it happens, y'know.

Is life > death really always true?

I don't know.

Love me, hate me, I don't care. It's all true anyway.

No longer gonna raise the bar off the ground for the rest of the year. But if I do, it'll definitely be when I won't be on the internet. Other than that, most likely in no other 2016 circumstances.

Bye lol kms xddd

Ok I'll stop.

Even though daydreaming me from back in July was accurate that somehow it came down to this result.

Hysterical. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.

Be sure to hate me. ♡♡

'Night~

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And the internet isn't working for no clear reason. Great! :))

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Ok it's working again hours later.