Flowers (and Other Plants) part 2

Part 1: http://thejamaamist.blogspot.com/2016/03/flowers-part-1-other-news.html?m=1

I'm on mobile, so if you're not, you can just get rid of the "?m=1".

Sorry if I post any repeat photos.

I have standardized testing all next week. I posted about it so much last year, oh my god why.

Constantly changing mood. Up, down, up, down, up, down. Down for unnecessary negative (how depressing smh) thoughts that seemed to have come from nowhere.. during typing last post. And.. maybe it's affected by other people and not just myself.

I regret typing things like this. The negativity itself that I obviously overshare on here, and then the post/s afterwards. It's this cycle of insecurities. Can't seem to get myself to go as specific in saying how I feel out loud into words, so I type it up instead. And also keeps best to internalize it so no one has to know.. I try my best.

New Blogger update says Blogspot blogs will be getting the "https://" before the Blogspot blog url. Making blog addresses more official and professional, huh? Nice.

My fingers hurt. I decided to do part 2 now. Yay.

Ok, okayyy. You came here for plants. I type way too much about myself on this damn blog.

But, ok like, I don't like my handwriting. It changes a lot, and unless I try and am interested in what I'm writing (so not schoolwork lol), I get iffy and uncomfortable with it. Like, you know, reading what I handwrote.. especially compared to other classmates. Not all of them.. my handwriting isn't that horrible. Heh, every student that's nice and reads my handwriting when we're working in partners or small groups compliments my handwriting by saying how neat it looks. But it isn't..? I find it ugly compared to theirs. Haha. (Cutepups levels of insecurity rising as levels of esteem falling. tfw).

So I type up what's on my mind instead. But since I have to tell someone and want to have a reaction even though they may make me feel more nervous and insecure, I post them on here. Because I don't feel like doing it on other sites. However, I do not feel better and comfortable, or well, want to talk about how I feel to people irl. Main word- talk.

I'm so contradictory it's not even funny...

Oh right, plants! (Stop forgetting, Cutepups! You don't want any possible viewer to hate you even more than you think they already do!).

Bye.

~ Cutepups ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

I. Am. So. Stupid.

The plants are from the same flower show I typed about in part 1. ^^

The ones at the tables were contestants in flower, or other plant, contests.

So yeah.. sorry about that.

ヾ(_ _*) ＼(_ _ ;)