It's Only Temporary

Being with you 
The rain stops falling
The gray clouds vanish
The sun rises again 
And on lucky days
A rainbow stretches 
Across the sky 
Like a paintbrush's stroke 
That's when I'm happy
And actually mean it 
But unfortunately 
Like everything else
It's only temporary 

Conversations
Laughs
Smiles
Love
It's only temporary 

Friends 
Trust
Fun
Happiness
It's only temporary 

Everything is so fragile 
It's so easy to break
So easy to lose everything 
I'm scared
I've always been scared
So I'll be quiet 
So I'll avoid you
Even though you
All of you
In your special ways
Make me so happy
But unfortunately 
That too is
It's only temporary 
 
Intrusive thoughts
Sneaking into my head 
Being quiet and avoiding you
Has both its cons and pros
I'm too scared
So you'll never know
So I'll shut up
And scream in my head instead
These thoughts they say
It's only temporary 

It's so easy 
To say "goodbye"
Especially to you internet folk 
So close yet so far away 
It's pretty crazy 
It's so easy
To be paranoid 
To think you're lying 
To think you secretly 
Hate me or make fun of me
To crash and break 
To ruin everything 
It's terrifying 
And I'm scared
And like everything else 
They tell me
It's only temporary 

Everything is temporary 
Don't you see
How terrifying that is
Everything in life is temporary 
Even life itself 
It's only temporary 

The sunlight isn't out forever 
So neither's the rain 
It will be okay 
I won't be scared of the world
I won't be scared forever
At least that's what I hope
Since everything is temporary 
Nothing lasts forever
Even though it may have lasted 
Forever so far 
It's only temporary 

Insecurities
Pain
Negativity 
Those also are only temporary 
Please let their little phrase be true
Because I'm sick of believing 
I'll be like this forever 

And even though we'll 
Only be together temporary 
Since it's inevitable 
And even though I'll 
Secretly have my intrusive thoughts 
I hope that we'll be together
For as long as we possibly can 
Because you
Really make me happy
Even though
It's only temporary 

Okay, friends? 

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Another writing piece by me.

Facts lmao:

I love and hate writing.

For the past few months, every time I write poems, I listen to twenty øne piløts (I am such trash omg). For some odd obsession I have with depressing songs (yes I know this song is very depressing ok I know), the more emotional the poem I write is and the more sad it is, the more often I listen to "Goner" while writing it.

Why am I in love with this song?! It's so sad. I can't stop. I even hum/sing it when I'm alone. I.. I.. Ahhhhhhh!!!! >8U

Funny because I actually wasn't listening to any tøp songs while I wrote this poem. I was listening to other bands. Wow cool. XD

... I've spoken enough trash for one post lmao.

I feel a little better today too. Compared to last weekend. Because I tend to overthink things in a negative way and suffer frequently as a result of it.

Be honest in the polls please. It's okay, really. Vote honestly. And only once. Thanks.

And yes. *sighs*

I'm still scared. I don't know what exactly of, but I am. Probably related to people and talking. And judgement. Yeah probably.

I get intrusive thoughts pretty much daily.

This is a personal, nonfictional, poem.

I'm kinda in a good mood right now, but I haven't felt true satisfied happiness in so many months.

So I still write. Woop.

~ Cutepups ☆