yo new profile pic

I put in a new (and PicMonkey edited again) Blogger Profile picture. I think this one suits my personality quite well. The other one was so open and smiley.. and this one is like shy and timid and neutral. And my hair isn't even as long as that other girl profile pic's. But mine isn't as short as the one I have for my profile pic now. Haha ok. 

There was this college fair at my school today (Thursday). I got some college stuff. Lol yeah. Walking with my quiet friend. Us being awkward. Grabbing those papers and folders. Oh yes. And mascot things.

We both have no idea what we're doing with our lives. Lol oh my.

I also remembered that word I forgot. It's one of my vocab words. Impotent. Ah yes, I get that feeling a lot. Especially when other people are upset/have something abnormal about them. That sounded wrong, but I don't know how to rephrase that better. And also about myself. Oh bother.

What else? Why am I here?

I don't want next week to come quickly. I have the PARCC (read my posts from last year's March and you'll understand.. it counts as a grade now though). :/

And that Tuesday thing. Ugh, I do not know. I have no good and sparking ideas.

Life sucks being a what seems like a friendless loner. Especially when you can't reach out and begin talking to other people just like that without being awkward which is a heckful experience to heck. So you just stand there. And then take out your phone, stalking your own blog.

Lol that sounded sad. I am so sad. I have no life and no one notices me. I must be a ghost that is only visible to a select number of people. That must be it.

Chatting makes me happy. Online chatting. With online friends. *wink wink*

Chatting with people irl. Hahaha.. instant regrets. Oh boy. Am I a child/teen avoidant or am I really just trash at knowing how to do social things? Like.. I go to school. Because I have to. But I feel inferior to other people in most cases. Like if you're around my age or older. Like I don't think a toddler or infant or fetus or whatever is more superior than me. That's just ridiculous. Yes, even more superior than a fetus. And even more superior than an embryo. Even a zygote. Zygote is the right word, right? Lol who knows man.

Now some awful random facts about me:

1. I once had a pet frog named Hop. Or Frog. I forgot, I kept him for less than a day.

2. I was such a small and bald baby. 

3. I wear glasses.

4. My voice annoys me when I hear it in a recording. I posted some posts with my voice, so you understand what I mean by my suffering. : )

5. My main catchphrases irl are "no", "I don't know", and "shut up".

6. I named my cocker spaniel stuffed animal, Spat. He is a good actor and goes on adventures with the black labrador retriever, Blackie.

7. There were several things wrong with me when I was a young child. I had to go to 4 therapies for 4 different things.

8. My siblings are away at college.

9. I did this Warriors story thing. Thelma was this warrior named Whitenose, and then she became leader, Whitestar.

10. Blackie and Spat starred in this movie series called "The Crongers". Crongers are these dirt-colored, giant booger-looking monsters that try to kill Blackie, Spat, and the rest of their squad.

11. Blackie's little brother is Midnight and their little sister is Faith. Their last name is Darknight.

12. Spat's little brother is Oreo. Their last name is Dixie.

13. Blackie's birthday is May 21st and Spat's is May 28th. They are my age.

14. I had such a love, a fondness, for stuffed animals. Duh.

15. I had these gerbils named Midnight and Dawn. Both males.

16. I had this hamster named Chester. I think he was a panda hamster. Yes.

17. The first story I wrote that has been put into a journal was when I was either 2 or 3 years old.

18. I think my first drawings are in that same journal.

19. I have curly hair.

20. My brother tried to make me turn into a boy when I was 7. It didn't work out.

21. In 5th grade, I got a haircut where nearly all my hair was cut off. When I came home, my sister mistook me for our brother.

Lol haha what

I shall continue this.

Bye now.

:))