oh hmm what to do....

Hi. It's 1 am here. I was looking at art over on dA, and I'm like half-asleep right now. Guess that means it's time for me to make a post, according to my Cutepups logic (aka I don't make logical decisions).

I know my personal poems are rather depressing. Haha, that's me. Oops.

I have more in mind.

I have other personal poem ideas, but I'm too afraid to post them. Because of.. reasons. Yeah uh that.

I'm not a happy person. Not anymore at least. Whoops, what can I say? Sorry?

I also have so many ideas for drawings of Duke. I know you're probably sick of me drawing him, but I just love choosing to draw him.

(Anyway, I only like drawing Duke as a human now. So deal with it. He's way, way, way better as a human, anyways.)

Some of these drawing ideas could possibly be triggering(?). Like..harsh. Pain. The past. The future.

Duke is such a tragedy boy, wtf.

Oh and I'm thinking of writing his death to be the most explicitly painful. Yeah uh, he has to die. Oops, sorry bud.

His body literally breaks apart. Yeah haha ow, it's great.

I think it's funny that you all probably perceive Duke as this loud obnoxious asshole. Like.. I guess that's technically true. Because of course he is. But anyway, he wasn't always like that.

Before the time period the story takes place in, Duke was like the total opposite of all that. For most of the time.

God, I love him.

Oh and drawing is hard. Drawing bodies in specific positions with specific perspectives is hard.

Drawing Duke the way I want is so hard. I always draw him ugly, and I hate it so much.

Uh.....

Hhhhhhhhhh........

Duke with no black hair is such a cryptic look, to be honest. Little kid Duke. This sweet, but also somehow a near-murderer, boy. This sweet boy.

I'm in love.

Duke with all brown, short hair. Duke with no black hair (even at just the ends) that shows his slow corruption. Umm.. good boy.

I hate myself because nowadays I'm loving Duke more than Fierdan. And like, omg do I love Fierdan so much.

Oh and psa- Twinkle is a savage. Damn.

Uhhhhhhhh...........

Lots of times, I imagine this story being like a movie. Well anyway, I think of this Duke actor so much. And wow, I love that imaginary guy so much.

He's just such a good dude. And dang, his stances on things. The guy is my aesthetic if I ever had an aesthetic for a person.

For an actor to play the role of Duke, well, he'll have to really know how to act. Because dang it, Duke is a character alright. Wow, he changes a lot. Dang, he cries and screams a lot.

Viewers: wtf did I just read?
Me: hhhhhhhhhfffghh fml